Last Mamak Yum Cha

Why everyone so tak sehati sejiwa one.. Just one pose only ma..

So hard to smile broadly ka..

Macam ini much more better isn't it..

I knew u all were actually crying ur hearts out.. No need to pretend la..

Four years later after the same moon light we shall meet again..



Hey guys
Thanks for accompanying me for the last mamak
I always thought that u all wouldn't be able to bid me farewell
Yet I still wouldn't believe that u all came back purposely because of me
=P

7th February 2007

31 January 2007 . Wednesday . Cloudy

" Ding!!" I was woken by a noise in my room. It was my handphone.

" ....... JPA has confirmed that our flight will be on 7th February 2007 ....... Still not sure about the exact departure time ....... "

My mind was totally blank at the moment, and I couldn't think of anything, because I thought that it would be on 9th February 2007.

1 February 2007 . Thursday . Rainy

" Ring.." It was my handphone again. But this time I was prepared. I did take a deep breath before I picked it up though.

" ....... You are confirmed flying on 7th February 2007 ....... Touch down at Sdyney first and stay there for about nine hours ....... After that transit to Wellington ....... "

My heart was sinking fast, and the heartbeat rate increased, finally everything was being confirmed, I would be flying on 7th February 2007.

2 February 2007 . Friday . Sunny

I woke up pretty early today. I looked around, everyone was out to school, except my bible which was lying still next to me. I smiled slightly!

Then I listened to the surrounding. I heard baby crying and grandma comforting. I heard motorcycles and cars. I heard students chit-chatting and laughing. I smiled happily!!

After that I walked outside the house and took a deep breath. The sun was giving out warmth generously and the breakfast of neighbours smelled great. I smiled broadly!!!

It's been a long time I never woke up so early. Almost forgot how lovely the morning was. The sky was blue, the wind was refreshing, and I was relief.

*A new day has come. There are hopes and blessings around.

See them? Just open your eyes la =P*

At Least

It's been raining and raining..

And my heart goes gloomier and gloomier..

Sigh. Sigh. Sigh. Sigh.

What on earth is going on ?!?!?!?!

* * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *

Is my mood really that bad??

Err.. Not really.

At least I ate seven drumsticks yesterday!!
( Dear uncles, I know perfectly that Im gonna eat a lot and a lot of beef and mutton and lamb in New Zealand, I really really do, but I don't wanna have a pot-bellied stomach yet, not at this young age.. )

At least I got different accessories throughout these weeks!!
( Dear aunties, I understand clearly that Im gonna leave soon for a cold and windy place and stay there for the coming four years, I really realy do, but I don't wanna have an overweight heart, with ur care and concern..)

At least I received many unexpected sms!!
( Dear friends, the fact that u won't be able to send me off and bid me farewell does bring one benefit to us, which is u all can save ur tears crying and I can save my saliva comforting..)

At least. At least. At least. At least. There are still plenty of "at least" going on.

Last but not least, at least I have Him, my God, the Lord =)

* * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *

Well, I seriously have no idea what my life would be in Wellington, a city which is far far away from home, and from u all.

I might adapt very quickly. I might be not.

I might fall and get hurt and cry. I sure will.

No matter what happen, I know I must be tough and brave, Im the child of God, Im the girl of u all!!

Forgive me to be so low for the time being. It's all the rain's fault. It really is.

Don't know why. But I truly miss the sunshine now.

The Smile. That Smile.

"10.. 9.. 8.. 7....... 3.. 2.. 1!! Yo!!"

It is a season of countdowns. No doubt for that.

A few days ago, the world was dressing up, partying, getting high and going crazy to celebrate Christmas. I doubt.

A few days later, the world is going to repeat the same process to celebrate New Year. I doubt, as well.

I thought Christmas is a season of goodwill, a season to celebrate the birth of Christ. But why I saw people treating it as a getaway from their daily life, holidaying and getting high? At the end, only the exhausted body and the empty soul left.

I thought New Year is a season of vision, a season to look back on the past so that we can burn bright in the future. But why I see people only keen on partying and going crazy? At the end, lost in the midst of crowds and the thunderous cheers.

Then, all these remind me of the smile,that smile..

I was walking along one of Singapore's famous roads, the Orchard Road. The night view as well as the light decorations were breathtaking. I just could not take my eyes off them.

Every single area was crowded with people from all walks of life, all were there because of certain reasons. I just did not bother myself with them.

All of a sudden, I was stopped. In front of me was a boy, with a balloon in his hand. First impression? Sun-tanned skin and same height as I, I would say. Haha. I did what exactly would I did as I was in Malaysia. I gave him a slight smile and shook my head, without giving him a chance to explain.

He stopped me again. Giving me a convincing look, he asked me whether I wanted anything as he would shape the balloon into it. At the same time, I realized that I was quite a distance from my mum. So I think I stood stunned for quite a while.

"Hey!! Have you done? Hurry up.." It brought me back to reality. I looked for the source of the sound and found out a whole group of his friends were waiting for him. "Wait!! I will be done soon.." Then he turned back to me, again, with that look.

This time he said nothing but gave me a broad cheerful smile. He still did not want to give up. Finally, I nodded. Without the slightest hesitation, he started shaping the balloon into something. That something did not look like anything to me =P

After a few seconds, that something was done. He tried to put it around my head but it just could not fit ( Definitely not because of my head was big ya!! ). Then I took it over from him who seemed embarassed.

"Thank you." I gave him a smile. "It is an unicorn actually. It is a blessing for you. Chiristmas is coming." He showed me the broad cheerful smile for the last time, then he left.

People continued passing by. Noices never ended. It was getting colder. However, my heart was warm ^_^

The smile.. That smile..

It reminds me from time to time that I am a blessing, and I wanna be a blessing.

Hope that those I care and those care about me to celebrate their coming New Year knowing the significant meaning behind.

If the boy that I met knew it, how could you not to??

^_^

You are loved !!

Don't give up

It's just the weight of the world

When your heart is heavy I will lift it for you

Don't give up

Because you want to be heard

If silence keeps you I will break it for you

Don't give up

It's just the hurt that you hide

When you are lost inside I will be there to find you

Don't give up

Because you want to burn bright

If darkness blinds you I will shine to guide you

Everybody wants to be understood

Well I can hear you

Everybody wants to be loved

Don't give up

Because you are loved

" I am the way, the truth, and the light "

Happy Birthday to Jesus Christ

Merry Christmas!!

Touched by the warmth..

Early in the morning, it was raining non-stop out there.

Inside my room, lying on my bed, with my whole body covered with blanket, I had no intention of getting up, at all.

Suddenly, "Minyu minyu!! Wake up!! Hurry up!! Look at this!!"

Relunctantly, I forced myself to open my eyes. Came into my sight was a lovely silver present box!!

With thousands of question marks popping out in my mind, I took it over and opened it.

"Eh?! Nothing what.." I saw nothing but a small square yellowish sponge.

"Take out the sponge and see?! Hehe.." Such a cunning old fox.

"Wow wow wow!!" Guess what?? There was a gorgeous silver bracelet under the sponge!!

"Nice ler.. Enough.. Now give me back.." Not yet recovered from shock, the box was taken away from me.

WHY?! What happen?! No need to ask I already knew that it was not for me. My dearest brother where got so kind one. He just wanted to have a rehearsal before the box was passed to its real master. Oops should be mistress. Sigh. =(

Anyway, I was happy. At least I had my day started off extraordinary. =p

It is still raining out there. It has been raining days and nights. It is bloody cold outside. But deep inside my heart, I am touched by warmth.

So nice to be at home..

When tomorrows come..

[[ One day, puppy asked his mummy, " Where is my bliss?"

Mummy answered him, " Ur bliss is on ur tail.."

Puppy put in his best effort to chase after his tail..

No matter how hard he tried, he just never could reach it.. ]]

Recently,
I let myself going through the Tunnel of Past..

There,
I see myself from innocent to mature..
I see myself with laughters and tears..
I see myself experiencing gain and loss..

Eventually,
I find myself in a whirl..
I am lost..

I become panicked..

Therefore I try to struggle
Thinking that it might help me out of the mist..

Then I try not to
Realizing that it is a waste of time and effort..

I start pondering..

Suddenly I realize!!

My fear of parting with those I love and I care
has eaten me up bit by bit..

My fear of walking the journey fulled of uncertainty
has consumed my courage bit by bit..

Because of fear I try to grab everything in my hand
To assure and secure myself..

[[ Puppy went to mummy, down-hearted and depressed,

"I can't reach and I won't grab my bliss.."

Mummy gave him a warm smile and replied,
"As long as u be brave, and be tough,

all u need to do is just stepping forward,

full of confidence and fearless,

then ur bliss will follow u wherever u go.." ]]