aeroplane in the wind

She went back to the place today. And she had a long walk.

Surrounded by the beautiful creation, she found rest in the arms of the creator of all.

The soul which once was weary was refreshed and the heart which once was burdened was set free.

She knows that this is gonna be a long tough fight. But she has no fear despite all the uncertainties lying ahead.

I am your Creator. You were in my care even before you were born.
She knows that she can trust herself and her life and the people around her into the hands of the Creator, the one who made her and will take care of her.

"You, Lord, give perfect peace to those who keep their purpose firm and put their trust in you."
She now has courage and strength to search and carry out her purpose of life given by the Lord Almighty, whose love is enough, whose grace is enough, whose mercy is enough.

She learns to set her both eyes upon the Heavenly Father, lay down herself to be used for a greater purpose. To treasure herself in the eyes of the Creator and to love others those lost and unsaved.

She loves life, for she loves God =)

Luckily..

I always claim myself to be cold-blooded.

I pour out love and passion whole-heartedly. Only to the right one right thing right moment.

You guys tend to claim me being cold-blooded.

You witness my pain and struggles. And how I take action logically rationally immediately emotionlessly.

I learn from pain. I stand up from failure. And now..

I have got hopes in my hands. Luckily I have you my angel my family my friends =)

MY day

That day is still fresh in my mind.

I walked along there, the places I like the most;
I breathed in cold air, it smelled freedom but responsibility;

One day I might be back standing at the brick I used to stand,
I hope there would be bright sun ray shining at two long dark shadows,

And we shall put on smile on our faces, because of You.

我是大人了

每次都发现自己还没有准备好，就不知不觉醒在大人的世界里了。


孔子说，人之初，性本善；
荀子则说，人性本恶，我认同后者。
这是从小学就有的认知。

活生生的例子就是我。
小时候的我很坏，具体的情况不太记得了，但潜意识的感觉是如此的清晰。
女生是赖以情绪生存的生物，谁说不是呢。

虽说不出个所以然来，我却记得那只厚实的手，和他所给予的转捩点。
自此之后，我就一直一直地被眷顾被守护着，现在亦然。

那是伟大的创物者的手，那时慈爱的天父的手，那是无形却实在的手。
因此，我变成了我，小学中学学院大学，虽跌跌撞撞却越挫越勇的我。


大人的世界很辛苦，我能当这么快乐的小孩，都是因为有那么辛苦的大人。


再过四个小时，我就是大人了。（纽西兰现已午夜十二点，可老弟说我出生于大马，得以当地时间为准）
也曾迷迷糊糊，也曾彷彷惶惶，也曾失措而逃。
还会迷迷糊糊，偶尔彷徨失措，却早已走出漂泊枯木的人生，一步一脚印地向圣灵之光迈进。

感谢上帝的手，感谢他赋予我生命中美好的一切，感谢他爱我并祝福我所爱的家人朋友。
我站得稳，我走得健，因生命的重量有你为我撑着，因我伫立在奇迹创造者的鞋子里头。


如果我不小心长大了，我要当爸妈哪样辛苦的大人，让每个小孩，快乐得不想长大 ^_^

S.E.C.U.R.E.

I think I understand what girls want today.

I feel it when I am with dad.
Because he tells me that he cares about me.

I feel it when I am with mum.
Because she shows her concerns to me.

I feel it when I am with Xian.
Because he is always there whenever I need help.

I feel it when I am with Jie.
Because he does things for me without letting me know.

It can only be felt when one choose to speak it out, loud and act it out, clear.

Security is its name.

Today, in the afternoon, I was questioned what do girls want actually.
Same day, in the evening, I realize the answer after talking to family and friends.

Out of complexity and complicatedness the answer is just simple.

Feeling secure emotionally is the key.

The wind is attacking the city out there. I am listening to gospel songs and appreciating God's presence in my room. Can't wait for church tomorrow indeed.

Can't wait to be in the house where the ultimate security origins from, Amen.

Thank God

My mind was blank.

Eyes were blinded by scorching white light.

Became deaf as all sounds faded away.

Not even have chance to open my mouth.

"Bang!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

My body was thrown forwards by the momentum.

Next thing I knew I was held back by the seat belt back to seat.

At the 0.0001 second I thought that I was gonna..

Then pain felt at the chest and back and legs.

"Are you ok?!"

I was frightened.

Breathe stopped till I realized I was short of air.

Chest was hurting.

Those few minutes felt like ages.

"It is alright."

At last brain started working again.

There was a car crash involving three cars.

Cars got quite badly but no one got injured.

Tears began to form in my eyes.

"Thank you Lord.."

I thank you that everyone reached home safe and sound.

Thank you for the rains that filled the Marae water tanks.

Heavenly Father, I am tired..

I need a shoulder to cry on..

I need arms to rest in..

I need a good sleep..

And I thank you.

Miss Minyu ??

New blood in Malaysia politics..

Olympic torch relay officially kicked off..

Battle between Barack Obama and Hilary Clinton on fire..

Here I am, in the wet windy Welly, setting eyes upon the world ^_^

How many times could one get injuries in a period of time??

If there is a quota for that, I AM SURE that I had used up all my quota of the year!!

Cuts on forehead and fingers are healed. Bruises on knees are getting better. Blisters on feet are dried up. Panda eyes are yet to get rid of lol

See the picture above?? One side glass door in my campus was shattered into pieces by strong wind the other day. Guess what?? It happened right after I passed it by and stepped into the corridor. Hmmmm.. Now you know how windy Welly is.. And how accurate is my 'quota theory' =P



Look!! How majestic was the bench!! And how terrified was I..

I AM BRAVE. I touched snake, tiger, scorpion, cockroach and all those insects that make girls scream hysterically. Oh I rode elephant too.

I AM GUTLESS. I dare not approach dogs, cats, chicken, birds, fish, rabbits and basically all those animals that other girls hug and sayang.

Look at the picture above, it was taken when I met duckies =(



Well.. That's what we call 'life'

No way you will know what comes next. Disaster?? Miracle?? Only God knows.
Opportunity slips off your fingers all the time. Why are you doing what you are doing?? Who are you living for??

No way you can hide from fear in life. Fear to step out. Fear to stay real. Fear to speak out. Fear to stand in boldness.

No one is meant to be alone. That's why God created man and woman at the very first place. That's why we are called to live as a church. That's why we have family, another-half, friends, you and me.



So I thank you sweetie for kacau-ing me when you miss me.

Hugs for you dear always say yes when I suggest to yum cha, or when I crave for sushi and Seoul House.

Thank you for making appointment to talk online one week ahead as I demand.

Huggies for allowing me to rest in my 'tortoise shell' when I am tired and do not feel like talking.

Thank you for volunteering to feed my tummy too lol



As I promised, like one month ago, hehe, here it is ^_^

I think I gain weight. That's why I don't show my body lol

Hair grows longer. I feel like cutting it myself seriously.

Oh say hi to my eye bag as well. They witness my completion of test, assignment, essay and lab report and my intimacy with my lap top. What do you mean you can't see them?! Now you know why I post the picture horizontally lol

Miss you..