mei mei.. I so wanna hug you before I turned away from you..
but I did not. It was easier for you to say goodbye that way. It was easier for you to handle parting if I did not leave you much memories. but was it possible?
mei mei.. A little you have given me such huge deep impact!!
The moment we got lost in the busy shopping complex because of my terrible sense of direction, you were the one who acted cool and led me out of puzzles. No cry, no blame, you did not even lose confidence to trust yourself into my hands.
The moment you eventually approached me, gently picked up my hand, you held it and you asked me not to hold those hands too tightly as they were gonna sweat later. Looking into your sincere eyes, it hit me straight to the bottom of my heart.
mei mei, you are little, you are still the real you, your original identity and personalities are still well-protected from the outside world. You do not hide your true feelings, you go ahead with whatever you think you need to do, your life is free from regrets and losses and I truly hope that you will not have to go thru that soon.
At night you generously gave me half of your bed, you made me dress up your barbie dolls and you kept talking about everything, and you would not let me sleep even after you had said me goodnight for more than ten times. At last you finally asked me not to leave the next day, even though you clearly knew that was not possible.
mei mei, you might not know that I could not sleep well that day, I was awake staring at the ceiling, with all kinda things processing in my mind. After covering you with blanket, I questioned myself when was my last time being brave against lows and problems? Since when I tend to act like tortoise and hide in my shell to escape reality?
You are a little angel God put in my life, to be my mirror so that I will not easily be moulded into a masked me by the earthly world. May you be blessed, together with your big bro, the knight on white horse, as well as your second bro, the kind giant, live happily and healthily always and forover!!
Tuesday, January 29, 2008
Friday, January 25, 2008
escape
Ahhh.. Hot la.. Panas la.. Zhwa la.. Lwa la..
I have been back for more than two months but my body is still so not used to the weather. My body has been having revolution whenever it is exposed to the wave of heat.
Fever la.. Dry cough la.. Diarrhea la.. What not..
These two days sleeping bugs have attacked and taken over my body and turned it into hibernating mode. The more I sleep the tired I feel that's why I decide to counteract those bugs by keeping myself awake thru blogging.
Dad forced me to see doctor because of my dry cough and as a result my sputum was sent to the lab. Poor me had to take cough syrap which was my number one enemy among all medicines. I rather take tablets or get injection than drinking cough syrap =(
Mum felt bad at her cookings as they caused me to have diarrhea very often till she found out the truth lying behind. My stomach gets so sensitive to the extent that whatever I eat or drink stand the possibility to contribute towards my diarrhea lol
All blames go to the hot weather =P
In order to train my body so that it adapts to the room temperature, I insist not to on the air-con during daytime. It does not help much I reckon. During the night bro needs two blankets to protect himself from getting a cold, the point is I do not feel cool at all under the same temperature.
One thing that cheers me up is that I am going to KL tomorrow and I am not travelling alone!! Haha. I still love my hometown but sometimes you just cannot stay in the same environment for too long. I need to go to somewhere else for a while, I need a getaway from my mundane routine.
Trust me, home is the ultimate place I wanna be no matter how attractive the world out there, there are 50 billion people passing by each others everyday, only those who mean a lot to you will make you stop your steps and stay with them, do not worry ya =)
I have been back for more than two months but my body is still so not used to the weather. My body has been having revolution whenever it is exposed to the wave of heat.
Fever la.. Dry cough la.. Diarrhea la.. What not..
These two days sleeping bugs have attacked and taken over my body and turned it into hibernating mode. The more I sleep the tired I feel that's why I decide to counteract those bugs by keeping myself awake thru blogging.
Dad forced me to see doctor because of my dry cough and as a result my sputum was sent to the lab. Poor me had to take cough syrap which was my number one enemy among all medicines. I rather take tablets or get injection than drinking cough syrap =(
Mum felt bad at her cookings as they caused me to have diarrhea very often till she found out the truth lying behind. My stomach gets so sensitive to the extent that whatever I eat or drink stand the possibility to contribute towards my diarrhea lol
All blames go to the hot weather =P
In order to train my body so that it adapts to the room temperature, I insist not to on the air-con during daytime. It does not help much I reckon. During the night bro needs two blankets to protect himself from getting a cold, the point is I do not feel cool at all under the same temperature.
One thing that cheers me up is that I am going to KL tomorrow and I am not travelling alone!! Haha. I still love my hometown but sometimes you just cannot stay in the same environment for too long. I need to go to somewhere else for a while, I need a getaway from my mundane routine.
Trust me, home is the ultimate place I wanna be no matter how attractive the world out there, there are 50 billion people passing by each others everyday, only those who mean a lot to you will make you stop your steps and stay with them, do not worry ya =)
secret recipe
We were together again. Inevitably it was mentioned again.
"Min Yu!! The last wish of all schoolmates and classmates before we graduate is to see you to be pissed off and to lose your temper.. You know!!"
As usual, I could do nothing more satisfying but kept on putting smile on my innocent face, what else could I do.
Sad to tell that I nearly lost my temper a few times recently.
When I was alone surrounded by heavy traffic and those noises made by impatient drivers..
When all the calm and confidence were replaced by insecurity and anxiety.
When I went around hometown only to find irresponsible folk doing harm to the environment without concern..
When there were a lot of wrongdoings to be justified but all you feel was helplessness.
When I had to give up things that I desperately longed for them so much due to factors which were beyond my control..
When the time was flying away no matter how hard you tried to grasp it and made effort to hold it back.
Happy to tell that prayers worked at all times when one expected them least.
Insecurity, self-doubt and regret can be winned over by care, assurance and appreciation. Yeap it is easy to say than to act it out. But you stand up from falling and you learn lesson from experience. It is like rainbow only comes out after storm.
Miracles only happen to those who believe in them. I whole-heartedly believe. You?
"Min Yu!! The last wish of all schoolmates and classmates before we graduate is to see you to be pissed off and to lose your temper.. You know!!"
As usual, I could do nothing more satisfying but kept on putting smile on my innocent face, what else could I do.
Sad to tell that I nearly lost my temper a few times recently.
When I was alone surrounded by heavy traffic and those noises made by impatient drivers..
When all the calm and confidence were replaced by insecurity and anxiety.
When I went around hometown only to find irresponsible folk doing harm to the environment without concern..
When there were a lot of wrongdoings to be justified but all you feel was helplessness.
When I had to give up things that I desperately longed for them so much due to factors which were beyond my control..
When the time was flying away no matter how hard you tried to grasp it and made effort to hold it back.
Happy to tell that prayers worked at all times when one expected them least.
Insecurity, self-doubt and regret can be winned over by care, assurance and appreciation. Yeap it is easy to say than to act it out. But you stand up from falling and you learn lesson from experience. It is like rainbow only comes out after storm.
Miracles only happen to those who believe in them. I whole-heartedly believe. You?
Tuesday, January 15, 2008
PHOENIX
It is not an ordinary picture. Not if you look with your whole heart. You should see a phoenix if you try hard enough.
You may call me a tortoise. As I seek shelter inside my shell again. This time I might take a little longer. Only me being brave is never enough.
Bathing through fire, then a phoenix reborns..
Till then, just keep smiling =)
Thursday, January 03, 2008
我跟你说哦
I am standingbecause I have an army of God behind me
because I am the heir of King of kings
because I love Jesus
五千年的中华文化是我的支撑点
是我必须传承的核心价值
是西方世界里闪亮的东方之珠
这一生到底在追什么
这星球每天五十亿人在错过
在冰天雪地 在荒凉沙漠 我仍为你倔强地毅伫立着
night owl
Please call me a night owl. Yes I am.
Again, I went out and hang out with friends. Just, today I reached home much more earlier (0017) than usual (0107).
There had been crazy nights after nights. Said goodbye to year 2007 eating and welcomed year 2008 still eating.
Fireworks. SMS. Police block. License.
Now we are no more kids, yet still behave childishly. Can't believe those days we used to turn classroom into KTV lounge, volunteered ourselves to perform dance during Teachers' Day, wrapping mandarin and mooncakes and delivered them as we were Santa Claus, gossipping on nothing important..
AND the unbelievable unforgettable fall of our friend when she rushed to see Zhang Dong Jian's photo. Hahaha. We all laughed as loud as we used to. With compassion.
Still remember those days we held in hands in dark taking shower in the lake? Pity the guys. And the days we rescued people from flooded tents in jungle before we jumped into freezing waterfall? Pity our teachers. Oh and the days we made experiment on how to cook perfect Maggie Mee. Surprisingly guys seemed to be expert.
NOW some of us have made our circle bigger and our bond stronger by bring their another half. Much more stories to be written. Of course much more topics to be discussed openly and more persons to be teased. Our niece and nephew are also brought by us into this great family. The way little kids see the world always induce us by leading us to think from different dimensions.
“有你 我才不孤单 有你的陪伴 我才有苦诉 你有不爽 我是你的垃圾车 每天听你的心声”
Again, I went out and hang out with friends. Just, today I reached home much more earlier (0017) than usual (0107).
There had been crazy nights after nights. Said goodbye to year 2007 eating and welcomed year 2008 still eating.
Fireworks. SMS. Police block. License.
Now we are no more kids, yet still behave childishly. Can't believe those days we used to turn classroom into KTV lounge, volunteered ourselves to perform dance during Teachers' Day, wrapping mandarin and mooncakes and delivered them as we were Santa Claus, gossipping on nothing important..
AND the unbelievable unforgettable fall of our friend when she rushed to see Zhang Dong Jian's photo. Hahaha. We all laughed as loud as we used to. With compassion.
Still remember those days we held in hands in dark taking shower in the lake? Pity the guys. And the days we rescued people from flooded tents in jungle before we jumped into freezing waterfall? Pity our teachers. Oh and the days we made experiment on how to cook perfect Maggie Mee. Surprisingly guys seemed to be expert.
NOW some of us have made our circle bigger and our bond stronger by bring their another half. Much more stories to be written. Of course much more topics to be discussed openly and more persons to be teased. Our niece and nephew are also brought by us into this great family. The way little kids see the world always induce us by leading us to think from different dimensions.
“有你 我才不孤单 有你的陪伴 我才有苦诉 你有不爽 我是你的垃圾车 每天听你的心声”
Tuesday, January 01, 2008
New Year
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HAPPY NEW YEAR !!!!!!!God put smiles back upon my face recently.
My life was totally out of its orbital, forcing me to spin and to keep spinning. My world was turned upside down, and I simply could not figure out where I was.
Then God shows the way out.
Never tried to control something which is beyond your control. Look onto the creator who holds the universe and everyone you love instead.
The Lord understands His creations the best.
One thing that distinguish between human being and other creatures is that men have the ability to hide their true feelings.
I am truly sorry for all the hurts I cause.
Now I realize how much pain it could bring just because I was not brave enough, we were not honest enough. Too late.
Glad to see the smiles again. Thank you Lord for the power of healing. 2007 is over and 2008 is gonna rock. I have faith =)
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