A splendid year 2007,
left with last 5 days..
Will it be possible
to make up the last regret??
left with last 5 days..
Will it be possible
to make up the last regret??
Wednesday, December 26, 2007
Monday, December 24, 2007
christmas Christmas
"Mum.. Do you still care about it??"
I asked carefully.
"Nah.. I had it all cleared out of my mind long time ago."
Mum answered like nothing has happened before.
A few years ago, when I was in primary school, I was nothing but what people called as good student. Teachers loved me, I loved studying. Friends like me, life was wonderful.
However, deep inside my soul, a wild fire was burning, an anti-norm attitude had been developed secretly. Therefore, I tried to challenge the framed examination format and striked to make breakthroughs.
Well, I did it. There were two outcomes, two extreme ones.
The bad outcome was that one of my essay was considered out of topic, which means I did not get an A for it. What turned bad to worse was that my failure was kinda shocking to teachers in my school and it led into arguments among teachers from different schools. Some said my essay was actually acceptable because my points were creative, on the other hand, some said I should not write stuff outside the box.
I remained silence throughout that time. I enjoyed writing, all I wanna do was just to turn information into power. I did not mean to bring anything bad to anyone, but the fact was that I was. I did not understand what was going on, and I simply could not, I was just ten. One thing that I could not deny was that I started to doubt myself, till another news hit me.
The good outcome was that another essay of mine had won me an excellence in a national level writing competition. I got money and my essay was published, together with all other essays throughout Malaysia.
I still remained silence after this. It was hard, but I became tougher after this test, and eventually I gained back my confidence bit by bit. It took me a while to leave all the fear behind and moved on, but I was thankful.
Today, mum and I ran into part of that history. This time, I was still silent, and mum, who used to shield me from all harms, she seemed alright.
Today, it is Christmas eve, my second Christmas after I decide to live my life for Christ, the one who holds the universe yet give me all still.
*Forgive, because God offered us forgiveness by dying of His Son, I learn*
In the midst of commercialized Christmas nowadays, let the door of your heart be knocked, give your soul a chance to be showered by His amazing love.
For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life -John 3:16-
I asked carefully.
"Nah.. I had it all cleared out of my mind long time ago."
Mum answered like nothing has happened before.
A few years ago, when I was in primary school, I was nothing but what people called as good student. Teachers loved me, I loved studying. Friends like me, life was wonderful.
However, deep inside my soul, a wild fire was burning, an anti-norm attitude had been developed secretly. Therefore, I tried to challenge the framed examination format and striked to make breakthroughs.
Well, I did it. There were two outcomes, two extreme ones.
The bad outcome was that one of my essay was considered out of topic, which means I did not get an A for it. What turned bad to worse was that my failure was kinda shocking to teachers in my school and it led into arguments among teachers from different schools. Some said my essay was actually acceptable because my points were creative, on the other hand, some said I should not write stuff outside the box.
I remained silence throughout that time. I enjoyed writing, all I wanna do was just to turn information into power. I did not mean to bring anything bad to anyone, but the fact was that I was. I did not understand what was going on, and I simply could not, I was just ten. One thing that I could not deny was that I started to doubt myself, till another news hit me.
The good outcome was that another essay of mine had won me an excellence in a national level writing competition. I got money and my essay was published, together with all other essays throughout Malaysia.
I still remained silence after this. It was hard, but I became tougher after this test, and eventually I gained back my confidence bit by bit. It took me a while to leave all the fear behind and moved on, but I was thankful.
Today, mum and I ran into part of that history. This time, I was still silent, and mum, who used to shield me from all harms, she seemed alright.
Today, it is Christmas eve, my second Christmas after I decide to live my life for Christ, the one who holds the universe yet give me all still.
*Forgive, because God offered us forgiveness by dying of His Son, I learn*
In the midst of commercialized Christmas nowadays, let the door of your heart be knocked, give your soul a chance to be showered by His amazing love.
For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life -John 3:16-
游乐场
追追赶赶 高高低低 深呼吸然后与你执手相随
甜蜜中不再畏高 可这样跟你荡来荡去无畏无惧 《幸福摩天轮》
仰望着眼前的摩天轮，五彩缤纷的灯光耀眼极了，使得我不禁在心中奏起久违的乐章。 随之进入眼帘的尽是幸福的人们，扬起嘴角尽情的挥洒着难得的准童年时光。
丫头当然也不落人后啰！！
因为表弟妹们的到来，我打着尽地主之宜的旗号，带领大队往游乐场进攻，实则为寻回准童年状态而来，哈哈。可怜被我拖下水壮烈牺牲充当司机兼保姆的弟弟及表弟 =P
最缤纷的花园游乐过但求动心 就算是世间末日抚心自问都想秒秒惊心
最宽广的公园游乐过为何认真 若我只剩一席位都想入座观赏这个惊险人生 《游乐场》
甜蜜中不再畏高 可这样跟你荡来荡去无畏无惧 《幸福摩天轮》
仰望着眼前的摩天轮，五彩缤纷的灯光耀眼极了，使得我不禁在心中奏起久违的乐章。 随之进入眼帘的尽是幸福的人们，扬起嘴角尽情的挥洒着难得的准童年时光。
丫头当然也不落人后啰！！
因为表弟妹们的到来，我打着尽地主之宜的旗号，带领大队往游乐场进攻，实则为寻回准童年状态而来，哈哈。可怜被我拖下水壮烈牺牲充当司机兼保姆的弟弟及表弟 =P
最缤纷的花园游乐过但求动心 就算是世间末日抚心自问都想秒秒惊心
最宽广的公园游乐过为何认真 若我只剩一席位都想入座观赏这个惊险人生 《游乐场》
Saturday, December 22, 2007
those hands
I saw dad talking to a young guy, and I observed.
Then they turned to me,
Dad said, "He was once my student."
So I smiled at him politely.
He said, "Your dad is a great teacher."
While he shaked my hand.
I still could feel the warmth in my hand till we left.
Next dad and I ran into a young lady, another of his student.
"Wow!! Your daughter?!" She asked.
"Last time she was still little, now big girl already." She continued.
After that, we were caught by a lady who was carrying a baby.
"Is she your daughter?? The one who studies in New Zealand??"
Yeap. Another student dad used to teach. And she knew about me lol
The first guy, he is a boss now.
The second girl, she has a career in KL.
The third lady, she is a mum, a tough mum!! She managed to live thru her life after her husband died in a car crash in South Africa after she gave birth to their first child. Standing in front of me today, she is satisfied, with her child in her arms =)
To put an end to this post, I pick this photo which I find today in my favourite blog. There are plenty of people commenting about it, but it wins my heart just simply because..
that hand changes dream into vision
that hand paints dull life into a colourful one
that hand visualizes idea into reality
that hand captures scenery and turned into memory
that hand maybe rough, but definitely that hand rocks ^_^
Then they turned to me,
Dad said, "He was once my student."
So I smiled at him politely.
He said, "Your dad is a great teacher."
While he shaked my hand.
I still could feel the warmth in my hand till we left.
Next dad and I ran into a young lady, another of his student.
"Wow!! Your daughter?!" She asked.
"Last time she was still little, now big girl already." She continued.
After that, we were caught by a lady who was carrying a baby.
"Is she your daughter?? The one who studies in New Zealand??"
Yeap. Another student dad used to teach. And she knew about me lol
The first guy, he is a boss now.
The second girl, she has a career in KL.
The third lady, she is a mum, a tough mum!! She managed to live thru her life after her husband died in a car crash in South Africa after she gave birth to their first child. Standing in front of me today, she is satisfied, with her child in her arms =)
To put an end to this post, I pick this photo which I find today in my favourite blog. There are plenty of people commenting about it, but it wins my heart just simply because..
that hand changes dream into vision
that hand paints dull life into a colourful one
that hand visualizes idea into reality
that hand captures scenery and turned into memory
that hand maybe rough, but definitely that hand rocks ^_^
Wednesday, December 19, 2007
There must be a reason..
For the past two weeks, due to the flood and the consequences it brought, I had so much time to do nothing, but to think..
For the past two days, the flood has gradually subsided. As a result, I have little time to do many things, but I'm still thinking..
"There must be a reason someone come into one's life"
It lingers in my mind and makes me to think..
And I remember
the girl who amazingly knew who was I and appeared to be there for me when I was helpless. I had no idea who she was and I thought she was just kidding when she said me goodbye. The next day when I woke up she was gone.
the guy who kindly relaxed my tension by making faces and lame jokes. He taught me how to apply theory practically. Meal times were always great as it provided a platform for us to put aside all the stress and pressure.
the big bros who mistook and continued to mistake me as their friend's sister. We broke rules together so that I got to play flying fox twice, and in slow motion.
the little girl who liked to smile and apparently who was tougher than me. We stayed awake staring at the starry sky and enjoying the smell of the wide paddy fiels.
the AJK who caught me walking in darkness and gave me his torch light. The light was not strong at all but it brightened my way.
the talented guy whom I helped to arrange one of his concerts. I heard pop singer singing the song composed by him a few years later. It was the very hit song of the year. I saw him in newspaper too the other day. He was the guest singer in a concert.
the fair girl who loved to cry so much. She was crying when we first met and people thought what did I do to her. She was still crying when we parted and people looked at me with that face again.
the teammate who gave me his gloves when our team needed to go through an obstacle challenge. My hands were still hurt but much less.
the sunny boy who gave me that smile and made me an unicorn balloon. I'm sure that he has eventually fixed himself in Christ and is shining for Him.
And the list goes on
People come and people go. Some of them are meant to be grabbed if we do hope them to stay. Many of them would just leave, and we are left with a reason, or a memory. It is your call.
I do not know where the above people are. But I thank them, thank you for appearing in my life, thank you for teaching me something, thank you for leaving me those sweet memories.
Thank you for knocking on my head, so that I learn how to grab and how to let go.
For the past two days, the flood has gradually subsided. As a result, I have little time to do many things, but I'm still thinking..
"There must be a reason someone come into one's life"
It lingers in my mind and makes me to think..
And I remember
the girl who amazingly knew who was I and appeared to be there for me when I was helpless. I had no idea who she was and I thought she was just kidding when she said me goodbye. The next day when I woke up she was gone.
the guy who kindly relaxed my tension by making faces and lame jokes. He taught me how to apply theory practically. Meal times were always great as it provided a platform for us to put aside all the stress and pressure.
the big bros who mistook and continued to mistake me as their friend's sister. We broke rules together so that I got to play flying fox twice, and in slow motion.
the little girl who liked to smile and apparently who was tougher than me. We stayed awake staring at the starry sky and enjoying the smell of the wide paddy fiels.
the AJK who caught me walking in darkness and gave me his torch light. The light was not strong at all but it brightened my way.
the talented guy whom I helped to arrange one of his concerts. I heard pop singer singing the song composed by him a few years later. It was the very hit song of the year. I saw him in newspaper too the other day. He was the guest singer in a concert.
the fair girl who loved to cry so much. She was crying when we first met and people thought what did I do to her. She was still crying when we parted and people looked at me with that face again.
the teammate who gave me his gloves when our team needed to go through an obstacle challenge. My hands were still hurt but much less.
the sunny boy who gave me that smile and made me an unicorn balloon. I'm sure that he has eventually fixed himself in Christ and is shining for Him.
And the list goes on
People come and people go. Some of them are meant to be grabbed if we do hope them to stay. Many of them would just leave, and we are left with a reason, or a memory. It is your call.
I do not know where the above people are. But I thank them, thank you for appearing in my life, thank you for teaching me something, thank you for leaving me those sweet memories.
Thank you for knocking on my head, so that I learn how to grab and how to let go.
miss mamak
"Min Yu, your friend called you just now.." Bro told me once I stepped into my house.
That's what happened most. I did not have my own mobile number and as a result people did not get to find me.
I miss mamak. But I missed it.
"Min Yu, we are gonna have mamak tomorrow, wait for my call ok.." Friend told me so.
That's what happened most. I am always lack initiative in this kind of stuff but I have great friends to push me.
I miss mamak. In fact I miss friends.
Five minutes later, a group of people appeared at the front door. To my big surprise, my friend led everyone to my house to say hi. The clock just hit 12 midnight.
"Min Yu Min Yu!! Have a guess!! Do you see any difference among our friends?!" He questioned me naughtily. "Hehehe.. Of course I know!! I am just updated ok!!" I answered in my heart. We threw eyes on each others then we burst into laughters.
The feelings are still the same. The chemicals never faded away.
The next day, after the sun went down of course, I finally was sitting at the mamak. Talking about stuff, whether those stuff made sense or not. Laughing over stuff, whether those stuff were laugh-able or not. Memories whirled back to olden days.
"Min Yu, just stay calm. Everything would be alright. The police would not know.." My friends were comforting but teasing me at the same time. Why?? It is because I did not bring along my IC and there were policemen all around as there was a local celebration going on.
Then I was sent back as usual. My driver reported me his latest views on politics as usual. "I will never lose hope on love!!" That's his last words for me, yeap as usual. Now I still can't help but laugh, sometimes things just never changed lol
Thank you all. I had a sweet night. Not to include the not-to-be-found-out-by-police adventure ^_^
That's what happened most. I did not have my own mobile number and as a result people did not get to find me.
I miss mamak. But I missed it.
"Min Yu, we are gonna have mamak tomorrow, wait for my call ok.." Friend told me so.
That's what happened most. I am always lack initiative in this kind of stuff but I have great friends to push me.
I miss mamak. In fact I miss friends.
Five minutes later, a group of people appeared at the front door. To my big surprise, my friend led everyone to my house to say hi. The clock just hit 12 midnight.
"Min Yu Min Yu!! Have a guess!! Do you see any difference among our friends?!" He questioned me naughtily. "Hehehe.. Of course I know!! I am just updated ok!!" I answered in my heart. We threw eyes on each others then we burst into laughters.
The feelings are still the same. The chemicals never faded away.
The next day, after the sun went down of course, I finally was sitting at the mamak. Talking about stuff, whether those stuff made sense or not. Laughing over stuff, whether those stuff were laugh-able or not. Memories whirled back to olden days.
"Min Yu, just stay calm. Everything would be alright. The police would not know.." My friends were comforting but teasing me at the same time. Why?? It is because I did not bring along my IC and there were policemen all around as there was a local celebration going on.
Then I was sent back as usual. My driver reported me his latest views on politics as usual. "I will never lose hope on love!!" That's his last words for me, yeap as usual. Now I still can't help but laugh, sometimes things just never changed lol
Thank you all. I had a sweet night. Not to include the not-to-be-found-out-by-police adventure ^_^
what matter
Firstly, I was waken up in the mornings by telephone calls and sms-es. The next thing I knew, mum came in my room and said, "xxx are on their way to see you..". The next thing I did, my body jumped out of bed and rushed to washroom and took real quick shower. Then I found myself sitting in the living room being exhibited to the visitors lol
Secondly, people were shocked when they ran into me, and I simply enjoyed watching their eyes and mouth opened till their faces were distorted. Haha no kidding. Maybe because they did not expect to see me there, maybe because I only went out after sunset. I love my life!!
In conclusion, I was told that I got fairer and prettier, which was pleased. And that I was a freak, because I hated the sun and the heat so much, because I stayed home when the sun came out and went out when the moon showed up lol
Secondly, people were shocked when they ran into me, and I simply enjoyed watching their eyes and mouth opened till their faces were distorted. Haha no kidding. Maybe because they did not expect to see me there, maybe because I only went out after sunset. I love my life!!
In conclusion, I was told that I got fairer and prettier, which was pleased. And that I was a freak, because I hated the sun and the heat so much, because I stayed home when the sun came out and went out when the moon showed up lol
Friday, November 23, 2007
Tell me
I think my jet lag has officially gone.. See.. I manage to stay awake till 2 a.m.
Seven days ago I touched down at KLIA, reaching home and by the time when the clock pointed at 2 a.m. I was asleep soundly on my bed.
Seven days later I sit on the couch, overwhelmed by all sorts of feelings that have accumulated in my heart since I was back, my mind's totally dc.
I think this is gonna be my most nonsense post ever..
"Lord, if it's you, tell me to come to you on the water." - Matthew 14:28 -
Seven days ago I touched down at KLIA, reaching home and by the time when the clock pointed at 2 a.m. I was asleep soundly on my bed.
Seven days later I sit on the couch, overwhelmed by all sorts of feelings that have accumulated in my heart since I was back, my mind's totally dc.
I think this is gonna be my most nonsense post ever..
"Lord, if it's you, tell me to come to you on the water." - Matthew 14:28 -
Wednesday, November 14, 2007
What's next ?!
Say bye bye to the Botanical Garden, the Harbour, and the Oriental Bay ------- Done
Bid farewell to friends and attend farewell lunches and dinners ------- Done
Say bye bye to MC LT, CO Building, Laby Lab, Kirk Building, and EA LT ------- Done
Bid farewell to the Weir House, A Floor, CK 1 ------- Done
Witness and celebrate Arise's fifth birthday ------- Done
Join after church dinner fellowship ------- Done
Settle Vodafone account ------- Done
Suspend Woosh account ------- Done
Suspend Rec Centre membership ------- Done
Settle bank account ------- Done
Shop for souvenirs for family and friends ------- Done
Taste all my favourite food ------- Done
Call supershuttle ------- Done
Reconfirm my flight ------- Done
Last check of luggage ------- On-going
What's next then ?!
In less than 13 hours I'll be on the plane starting my long journey back home. Leaving the windy wet weather behind, I'll be welcomed by wave of heat..
Malaysia, negaraku, tanah tumpah darahku, here I come ^_^
Bid farewell to friends and attend farewell lunches and dinners ------- Done
Say bye bye to MC LT, CO Building, Laby Lab, Kirk Building, and EA LT ------- Done
Bid farewell to the Weir House, A Floor, CK 1 ------- Done
Witness and celebrate Arise's fifth birthday ------- Done
Join after church dinner fellowship ------- Done
Settle Vodafone account ------- Done
Suspend Woosh account ------- Done
Suspend Rec Centre membership ------- Done
Settle bank account ------- Done
Shop for souvenirs for family and friends ------- Done
Taste all my favourite food ------- Done
Call supershuttle ------- Done
Reconfirm my flight ------- Done
Last check of luggage ------- On-going
What's next then ?!
In less than 13 hours I'll be on the plane starting my long journey back home. Leaving the windy wet weather behind, I'll be welcomed by wave of heat..
Malaysia, negaraku, tanah tumpah darahku, here I come ^_^
Sunday, November 11, 2007
5th Anniversary!!
I moved out of Weir House yesterday, the place which witnessed my first year life in Wellington.
I am now staying in friend's flat, it is located at the Fairie Terrace, what a wonderful name.
I will move into another friend's flat in an hour time, to be honest, I do not enjoy my "nomad" life at all, very tiring.
Thank you Uncle Ronnie and Aunty Lynn, Ishah and Esther!!!!
Thank you Frank, for helping me to move out stuff!
Thank you Zohan, for helping me to move out stuff! Again!
Thank you Amy, Pui Ting, Poh Yee and Yi Chin for everything!!!!
Tho I'm sad sending people off, tho I'm tired living "nomad" life, tho I really wanna go back home and see all of you right now.. I AM STILL STANDING =)
WHY?! WHY?! WHY?! It's because...
ARISE'S HAVING ITS 5TH ANNIVERSARY CELEBRATION
For where two or three come together in my name, there am I with them - Matthew 18:20
I am now staying in friend's flat, it is located at the Fairie Terrace, what a wonderful name.
I will move into another friend's flat in an hour time, to be honest, I do not enjoy my "nomad" life at all, very tiring.
Thank you Uncle Ronnie and Aunty Lynn, Ishah and Esther!!!!
Thank you Frank, for helping me to move out stuff!
Thank you Zohan, for helping me to move out stuff! Again!
Thank you Amy, Pui Ting, Poh Yee and Yi Chin for everything!!!!
Tho I'm sad sending people off, tho I'm tired living "nomad" life, tho I really wanna go back home and see all of you right now.. I AM STILL STANDING =)
WHY?! WHY?! WHY?! It's because...
ARISE'S HAVING ITS 5TH ANNIVERSARY CELEBRATION
For where two or three come together in my name, there am I with them - Matthew 18:20
Saturday, November 10, 2007
Tata
Just few more days to go, and I will be at home, my home sweet home!!
I am happy, but sad at the same time..
I hate packing, I hate saying bye bye, but I did and am doing both!..
I look up the night sky, there are planes occasionally, sending people back to their loved ones, bringing people closer to their pursuit of dreams.
I look at the fireworks, so colourful so impressive so attractive, the sky is the paint paper and the fireworks are the colour pencils. Who am I??
I can't tell what feeling am I having now.. But I miss I miss and I truly miss..
I am happy, but sad at the same time..
I hate packing, I hate saying bye bye, but I did and am doing both!..
I look up the night sky, there are planes occasionally, sending people back to their loved ones, bringing people closer to their pursuit of dreams.
I look at the fireworks, so colourful so impressive so attractive, the sky is the paint paper and the fireworks are the colour pencils. Who am I??
I can't tell what feeling am I having now.. But I miss I miss and I truly miss..
Sunday, November 04, 2007
What do you see??
It is meant to be a relatively long post. But it ends up like this. Can't help it. My mind's blank.
What Pastor shared today in church have been lingering in my mind..
Are you held back by your hurts and your past yet doing nothing but seeing people to cross the sea and enter into the promise land?
At the very end of the service, we were asked to close our eyes and "see", that's right..
To see what God sees..
To see the vision and the future..
To see the promise land waiting ahead of us..
I see today. I think. I will see more in future. I'm sure. How about you??
The end of my post lol
What Pastor shared today in church have been lingering in my mind..
Are you held back by your hurts and your past yet doing nothing but seeing people to cross the sea and enter into the promise land?
At the very end of the service, we were asked to close our eyes and "see", that's right..
To see what God sees..
To see the vision and the future..
To see the promise land waiting ahead of us..
I see today. I think. I will see more in future. I'm sure. How about you??
The end of my post lol
Friday, October 26, 2007
Mickey Mouse
Here I am to blog again. The stars are twinkling. Wind is having concert.
Two examinations down. Another two to go. I am still strong =)
Any idea where is the "longest" 80cm in the world??
It is located at northern latitude 38', the non-military border of North and South Korea.
On October 2, the President of South Korea walked pass the yellow border line, welcomed by the President of North Korea, dramatically.
Such a short distance, only 80cm, but it takes half a century to finally reach such breakthrough, so it is the "longest" 80cm.
Three years ago there were 8 000 people/ today there are 80 000 people/ from arena to stadium/ 200 metres walking distance/ it took us 1 5 4 0 days..
When those words appeared on the basketball court-sized LED screen, all people could hear was silence.. followed by weeping..
Love rocks.. Peace rocks.. Dream rocks..
To my surprise, people who came/and come to me asking for the above picture seem to be endless.. hmm.. weird huh.. nah.. take it =)
我始终带着你爱的微笑 一路上寻找我遗失的美好 不小心当泪滑过嘴角 就用你握过的手抹掉
再多的风景也从不停靠 只一心寻找我遗失的美好 有的人说不清哪里好 但就是谁都替代不了
Come together with words.. take them all if you guys do want it that much.. tell me one story in return to repay my kindness.. all of you!!
Whenever I am =( I will =) watching it
Can't really sleep well again.. This is my bed time song..
Looking forward to
enjoying my studies (which I really do)
rock with Parachute band in Arise this Sunday morning
be impacted by Greg Laurie in front of TSB Bank this Sunday evening
friends' farewell dinners
seeing papa mama xian & jie
Lord, grant my bros with wisdom.. Lay your grace be with them =)
.... (and sweet dreams from tonights onwards)
Two examinations down. Another two to go. I am still strong =)
Any idea where is the "longest" 80cm in the world??
It is located at northern latitude 38', the non-military border of North and South Korea.
On October 2, the President of South Korea walked pass the yellow border line, welcomed by the President of North Korea, dramatically.
Such a short distance, only 80cm, but it takes half a century to finally reach such breakthrough, so it is the "longest" 80cm.
Three years ago there were 8 000 people/ today there are 80 000 people/ from arena to stadium/ 200 metres walking distance/ it took us 1 5 4 0 days..
When those words appeared on the basketball court-sized LED screen, all people could hear was silence.. followed by weeping..
Love rocks.. Peace rocks.. Dream rocks..
To my surprise, people who came/and come to me asking for the above picture seem to be endless.. hmm.. weird huh.. nah.. take it =)
我始终带着你爱的微笑 一路上寻找我遗失的美好 不小心当泪滑过嘴角 就用你握过的手抹掉
再多的风景也从不停靠 只一心寻找我遗失的美好 有的人说不清哪里好 但就是谁都替代不了
Come together with words.. take them all if you guys do want it that much.. tell me one story in return to repay my kindness.. all of you!!
Whenever I am =( I will =) watching it
Can't really sleep well again.. This is my bed time song..
Looking forward to
enjoying my studies (which I really do)
rock with Parachute band in Arise this Sunday morning
be impacted by Greg Laurie in front of TSB Bank this Sunday evening
friends' farewell dinners
seeing papa mama xian & jie
Lord, grant my bros with wisdom.. Lay your grace be with them =)
.... (and sweet dreams from tonights onwards)
Monday, October 15, 2007
Two sweet sweet blisters
Last Friday was the end of my second trimester. Study week is waving its hands in front of me.
If anyone ask me what season is it in Welly. The answer will be it's examination season lol
On Saturday, I went to a church Chinese Bazaar, and I had heaps of Asian food ^_^
To my surprise, there were so many grandpas and grandmas contributing to the event, their sweet smiles and warm greetings were still in my mind.
Yesterday, which was Sunday, I was basically out for twelve hours, non-stop, seriously.
Went to church and saw pastors debating on the rugby world cup. Haha.
Then had lunch with friends and entertained by jokes and posings and what not.
Next, I rushed back to my hall, which was on top of hill, to get changed + got into cable car + came down to town + reached bus stop, in not more than 25 minutes.
Still remember vividly those looks the tourists threw on me and my baju kurung, luckily they din't take photos of me, or they did, just I din't wanna know.
Then, I was greeting everyone SELAMAT HARI RAYA while we were waiting for bus, and when we were in the bus on our way to High Commission of Malaysia. So nice to meet so many of my Malay friends, especially the guys, they all looked like Tom Hanks in Cast Away, their hair were so long. I suddenly missed KDU so much.
All the way from Lambton Quay to Willies Street to Victoria Street to Brooklyn, kiwis were amazed by the scenes that the whole bus was colonized by people wearing in baju Melayu and songkok and baju Kebaya and baju Kurung. Haha.
Spent an hour or two greeting Encik Abdullah Hassan and Aunty Rose and many other pegawai. Chatting and taking photograph with friends and seniors. Feeding tummy with Malaysian food ^_^ And enjoying the horror movie "Jangan Pandang Belakang". Horror movie in High Comm during Hari Raya, what kinda combination was that?? =P
Once I got back to Welly city, I walked and ran at the same time, in baju kurung and high heels, to rush to church again for the sermont of a guest pastor from USA. On my way I was approached by a Singaporean businessman and I became his tour guide for about ten minutes showing him around Courtenay Place.
My feet hurt so much as I got two blisters on my tapak kaki, one each =( But the feeling of pain disappeared when I was helping people and also when I was worshipping my awesome God =)
Went for dinner with another group of friends and church leaders before I was escorted back to Weir by my kind driver and his girlfriend. After having a brief chat with my flatmate, I finally got to take shower and rest.
Yesterday when I went to bed, I had such a broad smile on my face. Today when I woke up, the two blisters were still there. And they hurt still. But my heart feels so sweet.
Thank you Jesus Christ!!
For Your blood poured out at the cross.
For Your tests and trials that help me to grow.
For Your promises and blessings that give me strength.
For Your grace laying down on my family and friends and those whom I care.
Maybe next minutes I might be tempted by the Satan again, but I shall stand firm and look onto You alone =)
If anyone ask me what season is it in Welly. The answer will be it's examination season lol
On Saturday, I went to a church Chinese Bazaar, and I had heaps of Asian food ^_^
To my surprise, there were so many grandpas and grandmas contributing to the event, their sweet smiles and warm greetings were still in my mind.
Yesterday, which was Sunday, I was basically out for twelve hours, non-stop, seriously.
Went to church and saw pastors debating on the rugby world cup. Haha.
Then had lunch with friends and entertained by jokes and posings and what not.
Next, I rushed back to my hall, which was on top of hill, to get changed + got into cable car + came down to town + reached bus stop, in not more than 25 minutes.
Still remember vividly those looks the tourists threw on me and my baju kurung, luckily they din't take photos of me, or they did, just I din't wanna know.
Then, I was greeting everyone SELAMAT HARI RAYA while we were waiting for bus, and when we were in the bus on our way to High Commission of Malaysia. So nice to meet so many of my Malay friends, especially the guys, they all looked like Tom Hanks in Cast Away, their hair were so long. I suddenly missed KDU so much.
All the way from Lambton Quay to Willies Street to Victoria Street to Brooklyn, kiwis were amazed by the scenes that the whole bus was colonized by people wearing in baju Melayu and songkok and baju Kebaya and baju Kurung. Haha.
Spent an hour or two greeting Encik Abdullah Hassan and Aunty Rose and many other pegawai. Chatting and taking photograph with friends and seniors. Feeding tummy with Malaysian food ^_^ And enjoying the horror movie "Jangan Pandang Belakang". Horror movie in High Comm during Hari Raya, what kinda combination was that?? =P
Once I got back to Welly city, I walked and ran at the same time, in baju kurung and high heels, to rush to church again for the sermont of a guest pastor from USA. On my way I was approached by a Singaporean businessman and I became his tour guide for about ten minutes showing him around Courtenay Place.
My feet hurt so much as I got two blisters on my tapak kaki, one each =( But the feeling of pain disappeared when I was helping people and also when I was worshipping my awesome God =)
Went for dinner with another group of friends and church leaders before I was escorted back to Weir by my kind driver and his girlfriend. After having a brief chat with my flatmate, I finally got to take shower and rest.
Yesterday when I went to bed, I had such a broad smile on my face. Today when I woke up, the two blisters were still there. And they hurt still. But my heart feels so sweet.
Thank you Jesus Christ!!
For Your blood poured out at the cross.
For Your tests and trials that help me to grow.
For Your promises and blessings that give me strength.
For Your grace laying down on my family and friends and those whom I care.
Maybe next minutes I might be tempted by the Satan again, but I shall stand firm and look onto You alone =)
Tuesday, October 09, 2007
I saw..
I saw him crying..
the passion. the songs. the thumb.
I saw him and her crying..
hugging praying sending their loved one to Father's hand.
I saw them crying..
the sweat. the tears. the rain.
It's like the wind. One can't see it. But feel it.
Faith. Hope. Love. Passion. Courage.
the passion. the songs. the thumb.
I saw him and her crying..
hugging praying sending their loved one to Father's hand.
I saw them crying..
the sweat. the tears. the rain.
It's like the wind. One can't see it. But feel it.
Faith. Hope. Love. Passion. Courage.
Sunday, October 07, 2007
3 Fs
My friend left me a message..
".. I am very frustrated coz Mourinho left Chelsea.. D club website said it was based on mutual consent but I don't think so.."
Here is my reply to him (after a few weeks late)
".. At least u get to watch EPL ok.. Here got nothing but RUGBY.."
Another friend msn me..
".. I am very nervous coz gonna have an interview soon.. It's my first interview in my whole life.."
So I reply him (after a few minutes late)
"No matter how nervous you could be.. An interview is still much more better than meeting parents.."
All the above took place yesterday. And I tackled them perfectly well. Always thought that I was fearless. As in not easily defeated by the reality of life.
(Hmm. Not including feeling low, wanna cry, etc. lol)
Till just now..
It was pouring heavily + thunderstorm + lightning. Kiwis got so excited as lightning was rare in NZ.
In my room, I was enjoying the storm out there, it really sounded like waves, I felt peace inside.
Reading the latest news, New Zealanders were mourning for All Blacks. They lost to France in Rugby World Cup quarter final. Youtube-ing their haka as well.
All of a sudden, my five senses were triggered.
1) I saw the players' fierce faces
2) I heard the thunder
3) I smelled the tense of the air
4) I felt the footsteps
5) The fire alarm was set up!!
Someone was knocking at my door. I was evacuated with everyone else. It was still raining. I was cold and shivering. It was not my first time going thru all these.
BUT..
1) first time I found myself trembling
2) first time feeling so helpless
3) first time feel like crying
4) first time my heart was beating crazily
5) I was in fear..
My mind was swallowed up by the terrible feelings. My body was consumed slowly by all kinds of emotions. First time I din't enjoy the storm and the rain.
..
..
..
..
Xian, sorry, but I am fine now =) Suddenly I miss home so much..
And I miss the shoulders so much.. And the warmth..
This coming week will be my last week of trimester. Then study weeks and exams.
Ya, time flies, but don't remind me of that please =) I totally have no idea what had I done for my whole trimester, no kidding..
Family and friends and food are waiting for me. Jia you jia you jia you.
Hey, my great condolences..
The first woman in my life (my mum) taught me how to love.
The second woman in my life (my another half) together with her we learn how to love.
The third woman in my life (my daughter) we will teach her how to love.
Thank you Tiger.
也许放弃了一些 活得更轻松 我却不再是我
Thank you Ashin.
And now these three remain:faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love - 1 Corinthians 13:13
Thank you Father =)
".. I am very frustrated coz Mourinho left Chelsea.. D club website said it was based on mutual consent but I don't think so.."
Here is my reply to him (after a few weeks late)
".. At least u get to watch EPL ok.. Here got nothing but RUGBY.."
Another friend msn me..
".. I am very nervous coz gonna have an interview soon.. It's my first interview in my whole life.."
So I reply him (after a few minutes late)
"No matter how nervous you could be.. An interview is still much more better than meeting parents.."
All the above took place yesterday. And I tackled them perfectly well. Always thought that I was fearless. As in not easily defeated by the reality of life.
(Hmm. Not including feeling low, wanna cry, etc. lol)
Till just now..
It was pouring heavily + thunderstorm + lightning. Kiwis got so excited as lightning was rare in NZ.
In my room, I was enjoying the storm out there, it really sounded like waves, I felt peace inside.
Reading the latest news, New Zealanders were mourning for All Blacks. They lost to France in Rugby World Cup quarter final. Youtube-ing their haka as well.
All of a sudden, my five senses were triggered.
1) I saw the players' fierce faces
2) I heard the thunder
3) I smelled the tense of the air
4) I felt the footsteps
5) The fire alarm was set up!!
Someone was knocking at my door. I was evacuated with everyone else. It was still raining. I was cold and shivering. It was not my first time going thru all these.
BUT..
1) first time I found myself trembling
2) first time feeling so helpless
3) first time feel like crying
4) first time my heart was beating crazily
5) I was in fear..
My mind was swallowed up by the terrible feelings. My body was consumed slowly by all kinds of emotions. First time I din't enjoy the storm and the rain.
..
..
..
..
Xian, sorry, but I am fine now =) Suddenly I miss home so much..
And I miss the shoulders so much.. And the warmth..
This coming week will be my last week of trimester. Then study weeks and exams.
Ya, time flies, but don't remind me of that please =) I totally have no idea what had I done for my whole trimester, no kidding..
Family and friends and food are waiting for me. Jia you jia you jia you.
Hey, my great condolences..
The first woman in my life (my mum) taught me how to love.
The second woman in my life (my another half) together with her we learn how to love.
The third woman in my life (my daughter) we will teach her how to love.
Thank you Tiger.
也许放弃了一些 活得更轻松 我却不再是我
Thank you Ashin.
And now these three remain:faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love - 1 Corinthians 13:13
Thank you Father =)
Thursday, October 04, 2007
Cinderella
The wind and the rain are dancing waltz out there, intimately yet violently.
Spinning.. spinning.. spinning..
The muscle pain are crawling all over my body, silently yet significantly.
Oxigeno.. Fight do.. Pump..
I let myself having fun in my little world, like a kid.
To have undisturbed sleep and sweet dream.
To feed my tummy with my favourite food and fruits.
To read whatever I like and devour them.
To watch sports replays I missed and release my electrons.
I dare you to move, I dare you to move, the song is bombarding my hearing.
Seconds after seconds, time has passed incredibly unbelievably fast.
Suddenly I think of Cinderella. Back to reality after 12 o'clock midnight.
Dancing in the moonlight, let the rhythm to rule over.
Holding the warm hands, let the broken angel to regrow her wings.
I know You are looking at me, looking at this girl of You, struggling and falling down, feeling low and helpless..
And You must know that she does not wanna give up, she does not wanna cry, because she has You guarding and guiding her in this life..
".. Not because of who I am.. but because of what You've done.. not because of what I've done.. but because of who You are.."
The song might end. The earth might fade. But Your glory will last. And Your name will be eternal.
I thank you, I love you, Jesus Christ, for everything you've done, for who I am =)
Spinning.. spinning.. spinning..
The muscle pain are crawling all over my body, silently yet significantly.
Oxigeno.. Fight do.. Pump..
I let myself having fun in my little world, like a kid.
To have undisturbed sleep and sweet dream.
To feed my tummy with my favourite food and fruits.
To read whatever I like and devour them.
To watch sports replays I missed and release my electrons.
I dare you to move, I dare you to move, the song is bombarding my hearing.
Seconds after seconds, time has passed incredibly unbelievably fast.
Suddenly I think of Cinderella. Back to reality after 12 o'clock midnight.
Dancing in the moonlight, let the rhythm to rule over.
Holding the warm hands, let the broken angel to regrow her wings.
I know You are looking at me, looking at this girl of You, struggling and falling down, feeling low and helpless..
And You must know that she does not wanna give up, she does not wanna cry, because she has You guarding and guiding her in this life..
".. Not because of who I am.. but because of what You've done.. not because of what I've done.. but because of who You are.."
The song might end. The earth might fade. But Your glory will last. And Your name will be eternal.
I thank you, I love you, Jesus Christ, for everything you've done, for who I am =)
Tuesday, September 25, 2007
月圆了。。人呢？？
中秋节快乐
爱总忽然退潮 心慌乱触礁
沉默在深海里 看海面闪耀
当回忆像水草 静静地缠绕
梦在温热眼角 就冰冷掉
努力越过风暴 向着未来飘
我们再回到 感动的拥抱
你总是能知道 我的坚强剩多少 给我最刚好地依靠
你手心的太阳 至今放在我背上 委屈就能笑着落泪 被释放
在手心的太阳 黑夜里特别明亮 让远路好像是一种分享 爱不是漫长
你手心的太阳 有种安定的力量 就算世界再乱我也 不心慌
我手心的太阳 或许只像个月亮 却用所有爱为你投射我 最暖的光芒
Tuesday, September 11, 2007
I said.. You say..
Staring at the starry sky, I had a conversation with those little stars.
I said,
Research project and presentation had been swallowed by the huge wheel of history..
Bid bye bye to Chemistry test a few hours ago..
Legal exercise and another test are waving their hands in front of me..
They questioned,
"Are you still pouring your passion into your pursuit of knowledge, like what you used to do long long time ago??"
I said,
Skills of being able to skim + scan have been developed and improved..
Ability to express idea in structural + point forms has becoming awesome..
They questioned,
"When was the last time you actually sit down + take time to bite the words chunks by chunks and digest them??"
"When was the last time you actually manage to express ideas and feelings in a continuous way??"
I said, "......."
And they questioned, "......."
Well, obviously I'm not gonna share the rest of our conversation, as all my questions were replied by more questions lol
Staying awake in the middle of night, I had a conversation with my Father in heaven.
I said,
I'm lost. Totally had no idea why.
He answered,
"But I searched you. And I know your name =)"
I said,
I'm confused. I don't deserve all the blessings.
He answered,
"I bless you so that thru you many people can be blessed =)"
I said, "......."
He answered, "......."
Night got more silent. My heart gained peace and comfort.
Along with the conversation, memories were refreshed bit by bit in my mind.
Many times I felt like falling into an endless hole, nothing for me to grasp. And I was always like a small kid, lost courage to stand on my feet again.
But His hands never absent. The hands that pad my head, that back me up, that pull me up, the hold my feet firm. They are source of strength and hope.
This month is my eighth month in New Zealand.
I don't really gain weight, just my legs are real "muscular", as I walk a lot lol
Hair is long, can't wait to go back home and get it cut.. short!!
Eyelashes are getting curlier, stop looking at them, appreciate your kindness lol
Love being a night type person. But can't do it often because I have morning classes.
Crazy about pop rock kinda music. Thanks for the excellent sound proof wall of my room. Bro!! Don't forget that you promised to buy me the album and speaker ya!!
Enjoy company of my lap top + Internet + Wireless a lot. They are my best buddies.
Okies.. No more "ilham" for me to continue blogging.. Haha =P
Before I go, I wanna make an announcement.
I said,
Research project and presentation had been swallowed by the huge wheel of history..
Bid bye bye to Chemistry test a few hours ago..
Legal exercise and another test are waving their hands in front of me..
They questioned,
"Are you still pouring your passion into your pursuit of knowledge, like what you used to do long long time ago??"
I said,
Skills of being able to skim + scan have been developed and improved..
Ability to express idea in structural + point forms has becoming awesome..
They questioned,
"When was the last time you actually sit down + take time to bite the words chunks by chunks and digest them??"
"When was the last time you actually manage to express ideas and feelings in a continuous way??"
I said, "......."
And they questioned, "......."
Well, obviously I'm not gonna share the rest of our conversation, as all my questions were replied by more questions lol
Staying awake in the middle of night, I had a conversation with my Father in heaven.
I said,
I'm lost. Totally had no idea why.
He answered,
"But I searched you. And I know your name =)"
I said,
I'm confused. I don't deserve all the blessings.
He answered,
"I bless you so that thru you many people can be blessed =)"
I said, "......."
He answered, "......."
Night got more silent. My heart gained peace and comfort.
Along with the conversation, memories were refreshed bit by bit in my mind.
Many times I felt like falling into an endless hole, nothing for me to grasp. And I was always like a small kid, lost courage to stand on my feet again.
But His hands never absent. The hands that pad my head, that back me up, that pull me up, the hold my feet firm. They are source of strength and hope.
This month is my eighth month in New Zealand.
I don't really gain weight, just my legs are real "muscular", as I walk a lot lol
Hair is long, can't wait to go back home and get it cut.. short!!
Eyelashes are getting curlier, stop looking at them, appreciate your kindness lol
Love being a night type person. But can't do it often because I have morning classes.
Crazy about pop rock kinda music. Thanks for the excellent sound proof wall of my room. Bro!! Don't forget that you promised to buy me the album and speaker ya!!
Enjoy company of my lap top + Internet + Wireless a lot. They are my best buddies.
Okies.. No more "ilham" for me to continue blogging.. Haha =P
Before I go, I wanna make an announcement.
I'M GOING BACK IN NOV!!
Sunday, September 02, 2007
I'LL BE BACK
MERDEKA !!! MERDEKA !! MERDEKA!
Time flies..
It's been one month (or more than??) since I last blogged..
Well it's all because..
Okies I'm not gonna give excuses..
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So anything happen when I was absent??
They tied the knot..
They turned dad & mum..
They rocked in Asia & currently in L.A.
They are freed..
She is still missed..
He did it again..
Me??
My two weeks holidays had flied away..
Biology of Disease . Chemistry . Commercial Law . Communication Studies .
Welcome back my dearest "FRIENDS"
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What?!
I haven't mentioned anything yet about the Title?!
Hmm..
Next time maybe
Saturday, July 28, 2007
Dive In - Discover A Real World - 2007
Why do they look so shiny??
What are the light on their faces??
I don't know about them..
But I shine because I know something's rocking my life!!
And I know life is not going to be the same anymore..
Last year, at a place called Peace Heaven, my life was tranformed..
This year, at a place called Genting, someone's life will be transformed..
It's really a real cool website, isn't it??
I haven't really posted any photo of my holidays yet. Not my fault, as my photographer asked me to let her being lazy for a few days (kononnya, a few weeks lo). Or, partly my bad, as I'm lazy to urge her too, I will, soon, I hope =)
The most important trivial concern
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I AM BACK, hence here I am =)
A simple greeting, yet it's the most important trivial matter, knowing that Min Yu's back, safe and sound, tired but contented.
Met a lot of lovely people, experienced a lot of wonderful relationship, went thru such an awesome and unpredictable journey, witnessed sunrise and sunset at times..
Well, there's another story to tell =)
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I had no regret at all joining the TSCF Conference!!
Saw myself going thru metamorphosis, transformed from a caterpillar to butterfly. Meeting new fellows was real enjoyable, especially with those who held the same stand, who shared the same vision, as you did.
Days and nights were spent sharing life stories, debating over life's big questions, questioning one's view and stand, laughing and tearing at all the challenges, having quiet time with the creator, enjoying each others' company.
" Gal.. It seems like the entire stage belongs to you.. " People came to me, one after another, once I finished my sharings at the very last night. I wasn't prepared at all, it happened kinda last minute, so I had it ran thru my mind once, prayed shortly, took deep breath, and went for it. My mind was totally blank the moment I'd done, but I saw God winking at me again, must be His masterpiece again, but I like the challenge ^_^
After that day, the one-whole-week conference came to its end, signified the beginning of my another journey!!
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I reached back Welly, "yum cha" with those who followed us to Welly, went back to my hall, "dinner" with my friends in Weir, got my laundry done, re-packed my luggage, called airport shuttle, talked to mum, slept, woke up, caught up shuttle, arrived at airport, check-in, boarded, kicked off another journey.. All these were done in less than 12 hours lol
Had the golden opportunity to see the night view as well as sunrise during my flight. Staring at the magnificent scenery and the breathtaking view, I did nothing but enjoyed the creator's work to the maximum. All that fear and insecurity were gone, left with calm and soothing feelings. " It's gonna be a wonderful trip.. ", I told myself before I fell asleep on the way.
And it turned out to be a great one. I caught myself in trouble almost everyday once I touched down Christchurch, what a poor thing, you might have that playing in your mind right now. However, I was thankful for having those hard times, as sunshine was always after the rain. Thank you for those angels that I'd met!!
I didn't really spend much time travelling around. Because....... Bersatu Games was going on!! I just couldn't move my feet once I stepped into the recreation centre. I endured the fact that I didn't feed my tummy the whole day, and that I didn't go to toilet for six hours or more, all I wanna do was just getting myself into the spirit of sports. All my passions as well as memories were back!!
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The story went on when I followed friends heading down south to Dunedin. Well, there was another another story, again lol
At Dunedin Airport, the temperature was 0.2 'C. By the time I touched down Welly, the wind was so strong.
I missed all the scenery and beautiful view this time, as I was far too tired and sleepy, to the extent that I actually fell asleep even when I was standing, I did manage to take a huge glance at the sunshine-sky tho, before defeated to my sleepiness lol
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Here I am, back in my room, my Weir, my Vics, my Welly, again =)
Uni has entered its third week. My results for last trimester were well done, thank you God for His blessing in my studies. However I can't deny the fact that there is always and still space for me to improve more. Another four papers this trimester, Chemistry, Biology of Disease, Commercial Law, as well as Communication Studies. More challenging I reckon but at the same time more interesting.
Hahahahahahaha. Something funny suddenly popped into my mind. Hahahahahahaha. Well there would be another story as well.
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The most ordinary trivial concern turns into an eternal story..
Tuesday, June 26, 2007
Eternity Awaits ...
... wearing the fragnance of eternity, for man and woman, demands change - it does not sit easily alongside the shabby clothes of our old nature. Living for eternity brings new ambitions and a new way of life.
Soon, I'll be heading up north to a place called Waikanae for TSCF National Student Conference which lasts for six days, yup.
Why would I, at the very first place, made up my mind of going for it??
Well, all and all is because I felt a strong calling deep inside my heart, by any means pushing me to sign up for it, yup.
Dear Heavenly Father,
Lord, I thank you
for You search me, when I was lost;
for You know my name, before even I was borned;
for You have made me my way, a great plan towards a new born me;
Lord, I need you
to heal my vulnerableness,
to break my heart for what breaks Yours,
to be able to love and to be loved..
Lord, I love you
help me to stand firm at Your feet;
help me to shine for being a child of Yours;
help me to see things unseen, hear things unheard;
Lord Jesus, I bow down, and I surrender, so take it, take over the control of my life,
then lead me, guide me, use me, redeem me, if this is the way You want me to live my life,
I tell You, I will just live it =)
The next day right after coming back from the conference, I'll be heading down south to Christchurch and Dunedin, what a busy girl I'll be.
Friend told me that it's been snowing in Dunedin for days. So I'm kinda looking forward to seeing and touching the real white snow. But I hope myself won't get frozen over there haha.
Okies is time to stop now. Gotta prepare myself for the trips. New places new people for two whole weeks. Gonna be great and awesome I suppose. See you guys back then.
So looooong!! ^_^
Sunday, June 24, 2007
T.E.A.R.S.
I always smile. Or laugh maybe. Seems more correct =)
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Nevertheless, I shed tears easily, too.No. 1 - church
No. 2 - sports
No. 3 - real life stories
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( Ok.. What are you looking forward to?? Huh.. of course I don't have photo of me shedding tears lol )
Thierry Henry is leaving English Premier League (Arsenal) for Spanish Premier League (Barcelona). He's not really my favourite soccer player, but he is the one to whom I pay my respect.
His ability to score one-on-ones. His pace. His contribution in assists. Soul of Arsenal.
Last saw him in NBA Final supporting his buddy. Well. Things change as time does.
Tim Duncan, the San Antonio Spurs' leader, just got his fourth championship =)The stoic and selfless foundation. One of the best center forward.
Once the champion is in hand, Tony Parker got the MVP, whole team was cheering..
guess what was he doing?
He was found at one corner, hugging his little daughter, sharing the moment with his wife.When the MVP was given away to other people, he was the one who clapped the hardest.
Not keen to be under limelight. Help his team to find their roles. Be happy for others' achievement.
He's the man!!
On the other hand, Real Madrid won their champion.And the picture above gained my attention.
After spending four years in a place not belonged to him, after experiencing all the ups and downs, he finally walked away with pride.
I never know how to see this man, David Beckham.But if put aside all those glamour, he was a good captain, is a legendary player, a loving father, of course =)
An English thinker once wrote, “If you sow your seeds with faith and you care for them with perseverance, it's only a question of time until you reap a harvest of rewards.”
How right it is, isn't it?
How right it is, isn't it?
R.A.D.I.A.N.T.
Dear Rodrigo,
Hello. Or should I say Oi instead =) I've seen your message/comment in my post entitled "The Man with A Plan". Obrigado, aprecie, contente de ouvir-se de você!!
Well, I am always proud to be able to speak or at least understand many languages, but definitely not this time. My friends and I, in addition we know more than ten languages in total, however none of us understand Portuguese. Haha.
Luckily we managed to find out that your message was written in Portuguese, an achievement I reckon, for us =P So I thank you for your words, and if I am not mistaken, you were asking me to go see your blog which was about personalized T-shirt, do I get you right??
Até mais. ^_^
**
Feel in mood for some stories?? Huh?? Don't care coz I'll still carry on lol
Three years back, when I was still in Form Five, I was emceeing a singing competition. Still remember vividly how lack of confidence I was, not because of my ability & capability of emceeing such a big event, I'd done that many times, but purely because of my appearance and my look.
I found myself ugly in my dress, with my glasses on, and etc, not as shiny as other fellows. Felt like holding back and not willing to stand under the stage lights. No one noticed my fear but my dad & mum, they caught me, and the only thing that they told me was :
"Gal, let your face shines with radiant for your talent and your performance, not your look, ok.."
So I took a deep breath, tried my very best not to bother myself with how did I look, and I went up to stage, and I talked as I was supposed to, and that evening turned out to be a great success. Teachers were impressed, parents were proud, and I realized one thing :
"Beauty = confidence = talent = smile = humble =)"
Since that day, I learn to be humble myself in every of my undertakings, and God blesses me with a lot more, more than words can tell.
**
Nearly two years back, I was a lucky girl who got the sponsorship and the opportunity to study in college. My simple small world had suddenly become a massive complicated world. That's what people say :
"With every blessing there comes trials."
Still remember my friend and I were walking along the highway near IKANO, by all chance we missed all buses, so we ended up talking. She was low at that time, so I kept on talking and talking, tried to cheer her up. Finally she opened her mouth :
"Min Yu, do u know that ur smile is shiny, it warms people's heart."
I stunned for seconds, and I couldn't remember what happened next, or I don't wanna remember lol Now whenever I recall it, I'll not just smile, laugh non-stop instead. Haha.
**
After some time, it was V's Days, my friends and I gathered for a dinner, where all the guys brought their own girls, and me and my friend shared one guy. Hohoho. Dinner was nice I reckoned, but that's not the main point, the highlight of the day was after the dinner, when my friend and I bid bye bye to the rest and went for a walk.
Now use your imagination please. Two girls, one taller (me), one apparently shorter (my friend). I'd got roses in my hand, and she'd got her handbag. Not sure whether we were holding hands or not, couldn't really remember, but one thing for sure was that we were close. Hmm.. Get it so far?
One reminder, it was V's Day, in other words, everything came into your sight was in pairs. Well, we were in pair too, but of the same sex, that's the problem. When we enjoyed ourselves taking photos, people were staring at us with some kinda look, one band the guitarist even came near us and played to us =P
We din't really care about those people, just found it funny, who would want to spoil such a romantic atmosphere lol Finally we got into a cab, the driver was a chinese uncle, I think. So I was talking and talking, happily and excited, till I felt that my friend was staring at me :
"Min Yu, you looked so different so beautiful today la, wearing contact lense, and your smile."
Hmm.. I don't think I'll need to explain what went on next. Haha.
**
So.... Why would I suddenly be so in mood to share about all these?! Hmm.... It is because all those things have been taking place here in Wellington. The more often it happens, the more I think back the past, the more I link everything together, the more I can't help laughing.
Hahaha. Actually I seldom wear my contact lense for two reasons, firstly, I am not supposed to wear it in the lab, and I am a science student; secondly, I just don't feel like wearing it, coz I am far too lazy. Being the real me, being the comfortable me, that's my priority.
"Min Yu ar, you are big girl lo, why don't you just take off your glasses?? Do you know that how lucky you are for having naturally curled eyelashes? Wei ar, listen to me la.."
"Ohh.. I know I know.. I see how la.."
"Min Yu ar, how come you only dress up for this and that, u ar........... aiyo.......... ahh........... ok I give up.."
"Ohh.. What do you expect me to wear for lab then.. See how la.."
Hey girl, it's not that I don't wanna do, it's just I don't do it for the sake of doing. All girls like to dress up, like you, so do I, but don't ever forget the purpose behind =)
**
Sorry to say that I don't have a happy ending for my "stories".
That girl, she brings me happiness, and lots of sufferings, she makes me see her bright future, and how dark it turns out to be.
Now, she's gone, and I miss her very very much, she'll never know.
Hey you, he said that I was angel, I tell you what, I don't wanna be anyone's angel. But I thank you, for causing me to appreciate my smile.
**
Let the darkness be taken over, let His light shine upon the earth;
There comes hope; there comes love;
Keep smiling. Smile at trials. Smiles at problems. Never cease.
In Jesus Christ name. Amen.
=)
Hello. Or should I say Oi instead =) I've seen your message/comment in my post entitled "The Man with A Plan". Obrigado, aprecie, contente de ouvir-se de você!!
Well, I am always proud to be able to speak or at least understand many languages, but definitely not this time. My friends and I, in addition we know more than ten languages in total, however none of us understand Portuguese. Haha.
Luckily we managed to find out that your message was written in Portuguese, an achievement I reckon, for us =P So I thank you for your words, and if I am not mistaken, you were asking me to go see your blog which was about personalized T-shirt, do I get you right??
Até mais. ^_^
**
Feel in mood for some stories?? Huh?? Don't care coz I'll still carry on lol
Three years back, when I was still in Form Five, I was emceeing a singing competition. Still remember vividly how lack of confidence I was, not because of my ability & capability of emceeing such a big event, I'd done that many times, but purely because of my appearance and my look.
I found myself ugly in my dress, with my glasses on, and etc, not as shiny as other fellows. Felt like holding back and not willing to stand under the stage lights. No one noticed my fear but my dad & mum, they caught me, and the only thing that they told me was :
"Gal, let your face shines with radiant for your talent and your performance, not your look, ok.."
So I took a deep breath, tried my very best not to bother myself with how did I look, and I went up to stage, and I talked as I was supposed to, and that evening turned out to be a great success. Teachers were impressed, parents were proud, and I realized one thing :
"Beauty = confidence = talent = smile = humble =)"
Since that day, I learn to be humble myself in every of my undertakings, and God blesses me with a lot more, more than words can tell.
**
Nearly two years back, I was a lucky girl who got the sponsorship and the opportunity to study in college. My simple small world had suddenly become a massive complicated world. That's what people say :
"With every blessing there comes trials."
Still remember my friend and I were walking along the highway near IKANO, by all chance we missed all buses, so we ended up talking. She was low at that time, so I kept on talking and talking, tried to cheer her up. Finally she opened her mouth :
"Min Yu, do u know that ur smile is shiny, it warms people's heart."
I stunned for seconds, and I couldn't remember what happened next, or I don't wanna remember lol Now whenever I recall it, I'll not just smile, laugh non-stop instead. Haha.
**
After some time, it was V's Days, my friends and I gathered for a dinner, where all the guys brought their own girls, and me and my friend shared one guy. Hohoho. Dinner was nice I reckoned, but that's not the main point, the highlight of the day was after the dinner, when my friend and I bid bye bye to the rest and went for a walk.
Now use your imagination please. Two girls, one taller (me), one apparently shorter (my friend). I'd got roses in my hand, and she'd got her handbag. Not sure whether we were holding hands or not, couldn't really remember, but one thing for sure was that we were close. Hmm.. Get it so far?
One reminder, it was V's Day, in other words, everything came into your sight was in pairs. Well, we were in pair too, but of the same sex, that's the problem. When we enjoyed ourselves taking photos, people were staring at us with some kinda look, one band the guitarist even came near us and played to us =P
We din't really care about those people, just found it funny, who would want to spoil such a romantic atmosphere lol Finally we got into a cab, the driver was a chinese uncle, I think. So I was talking and talking, happily and excited, till I felt that my friend was staring at me :
"Min Yu, you looked so different so beautiful today la, wearing contact lense, and your smile."
Hmm.. I don't think I'll need to explain what went on next. Haha.
**
So.... Why would I suddenly be so in mood to share about all these?! Hmm.... It is because all those things have been taking place here in Wellington. The more often it happens, the more I think back the past, the more I link everything together, the more I can't help laughing.
Hahaha. Actually I seldom wear my contact lense for two reasons, firstly, I am not supposed to wear it in the lab, and I am a science student; secondly, I just don't feel like wearing it, coz I am far too lazy. Being the real me, being the comfortable me, that's my priority.
"Min Yu ar, you are big girl lo, why don't you just take off your glasses?? Do you know that how lucky you are for having naturally curled eyelashes? Wei ar, listen to me la.."
"Ohh.. I know I know.. I see how la.."
"Min Yu ar, how come you only dress up for this and that, u ar........... aiyo.......... ahh........... ok I give up.."
"Ohh.. What do you expect me to wear for lab then.. See how la.."
Hey girl, it's not that I don't wanna do, it's just I don't do it for the sake of doing. All girls like to dress up, like you, so do I, but don't ever forget the purpose behind =)
**
Sorry to say that I don't have a happy ending for my "stories".
That girl, she brings me happiness, and lots of sufferings, she makes me see her bright future, and how dark it turns out to be.
Now, she's gone, and I miss her very very much, she'll never know.
Hey you, he said that I was angel, I tell you what, I don't wanna be anyone's angel. But I thank you, for causing me to appreciate my smile.
**
Let the darkness be taken over, let His light shine upon the earth;
There comes hope; there comes love;
Keep smiling. Smile at trials. Smiles at problems. Never cease.
In Jesus Christ name. Amen.
=)
What a wonderful day!!
First of all, have a look at this :
" just to say hello to u. i've read ur 'voice from the bottom of my heart', how sweet u are, a really wonderful girl. that's why i like u so much until i can't spell it. but do u know me? "
So.... I got this message in my inbox. What do you reckon?? Huh?? To be honest, the first thing that came across my mind was that "I've got secret admirer!!" lol Ok.... I bet you think the same as me, too.
I got terrified, and then I found out this :
" i'm a counselor frm SMK Triang. God bless u, bye. take care! " Hahaha. I laughed non-stop seeing this message. What a cute and funny teacher am I having?! Hahaha. Thanks God for it was my teacher's masterpiece =P
**
Well, I'd got my first trimester coming to its end, and all my examinations done, a few weeks/days ago. Hurrayyyy!!
Still remember that after my last lecture, everyone was on their feet giving the thunderous applause to the lecturer. And I, as sentimental as usual, felt so touched and thankful in my heart.
Time flies, without my realize. But on the other hand, knowledge gained, wisdom harvested. One ending signifies the beginning of a whole new page. Ok, is sentimental-ing enough.
" just to say hello to u. i've read ur 'voice from the bottom of my heart', how sweet u are, a really wonderful girl. that's why i like u so much until i can't spell it. but do u know me? "
So.... I got this message in my inbox. What do you reckon?? Huh?? To be honest, the first thing that came across my mind was that "I've got secret admirer!!" lol Ok.... I bet you think the same as me, too.
I got terrified, and then I found out this :
" i'm a counselor frm SMK Triang. God bless u, bye. take care! " Hahaha. I laughed non-stop seeing this message. What a cute and funny teacher am I having?! Hahaha. Thanks God for it was my teacher's masterpiece =P
**
Well, I'd got my first trimester coming to its end, and all my examinations done, a few weeks/days ago. Hurrayyyy!!
Still remember that after my last lecture, everyone was on their feet giving the thunderous applause to the lecturer. And I, as sentimental as usual, felt so touched and thankful in my heart.
Time flies, without my realize. But on the other hand, knowledge gained, wisdom harvested. One ending signifies the beginning of a whole new page. Ok, is sentimental-ing enough.
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My textbook - had them fed into my little brain in just one trimester lol
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My "blood & sweat" - see those piles of papers in the fails, they're excluding my lecture notes, all are my handwork lol
My last paper was Chemistry, the easiest for most of the students, yet the most insecure one for myself. Anyway, it's all over now, yoooo!!
Once I stepped into my room, with my body tired, and my mind exhausted, I'd got this weird feeling that IT IS HERE!! Nah. I told myself that my sixth sense wouldn't be that accurate, so I just din't bother myself with the feeling that IT IS HERE.
Suddenly a text came in, I looked at its content, and yes, I was terrified again!! " Hey min yu, IT IS HERE, enjoy treasuring it ya =) ". Without any hesitation, I ran out of my room for it. Guess what?! IT IS THERE!!
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There it is. Har?! U thought what =P
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Ginseng hair shampoo. Milk body shampoo. Baby oils. Lip moisturizers. Clothes. What not =P
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To please me up the most - my old-torn out Chinese dictionary, my best friend since primary school.
Thank you dad and mum!! Thank you bros for the CD!!
Thank you Lord =)
Saturday, June 23, 2007
PAPA
So.... This is the man - My papa!!
Was supposed to make this post during Father's Day. Was gonna blog a long one since I'd got a lot to say. But as time goes by, things change, people change, so does my little mind.
So.... Here is everything and the only thing that Im gonna tell - to make the long short!!
Thank you for "protecting" me. Thank you for "controlling" me. Thank you for "advising" me. Thank you for "warning" me. If there wasn't because of you, I'll definitely be ruined.
Life isn't just black and white, and Im standing right in the grey region. In this grey area, no one can tell what's right and what's wrong. Or maybe there's truth, it's just people don't get things right.
I see through my eyes young people having their days spent in night clubs. Drinking, dancing, getting high, going wild, what not. I see how girls not appreciating themselves and taking the wrong steps.
Most of the time Im thinking, I could be one of them, desperately looking for love, yet through the wrong way the wrong person, or I could be worse, if you weren't there for me, and mum, and bros.
Do not worry about me. Your daughter is grown up. She starts seeing the world in her own way. She starts playing her role with the wisdom gifted to her. She's blessed by her heavenly father. One day one man will take over your "burden" and walk the journey with her. So do not worry about her =)
Happy belated Father's Day. To my papa and everyone's dad!!
Friday, June 08, 2007
The Man with A Plan
So.......
I was like that tortoise, hiding myself in my little secret world, for the past whole week.
I had my mind locked, my heart closed, my face shadowed, my body rested, for many many days.
No smiles. No tears. Numb. Vulnerable. Miserable.
But.......
This time is different, as compared to those times that I ever had before, totally not the same anymore.
Though the waves of life seem to fall upon me endlessly, one followed by another and anothers, THEY were not beated to ground anymore.
My hope. My passion. My dream. My vision. THEY all survived!!
I spend my days feeding myself with cell biology, biotechnology, concept of chemistry, etc.. The more I get to know, the more I realize that, I SERVE THE MAN WITH A PLAN =)
I spend my nights looking at the starry sky, the hills, the harbour, the buildings, the streets, etc.. The more I get to see, the more I am convinced that, I SERVE THE MAN WITH A PLAN =)
I feel like a wretch most of the time. I don't know how to love and I don't know how to be loved. Feel myself ugly too. For merely display God's characteristics in life. And the list goes on.
Nevertheless, the Lord's love never fail to shower me, His light never cease to shine upon me. Falling down, get hurt, stand up. Through hardships I learn to live by faith & in love, to humble myself as well.
By the way, my examination is round at the corner. Gonna have my first paper on 12th June, yeap that's right. Conference + Christchurch + Dunedin are waiting for me ^_^
All the best to all my friends in their exams!! Go go go!! But then how come I only can feel cold and hungry at the moment.. Tak bersemangat pun.. Haha =)
Okies is enough blogging. See ya. Nites.
Sunday, May 27, 2007
I am still standing
Well. Today is SUNDAY!! Yo.
God's house is full. People need more room. So a new service will be added.
Pastors are "weird". The way he announced about the coming Relationship Seminar. The way he shared about his love story bla bla bla. Hmm sounds "bizarre".
But then people enjoy it. So do I. Just can't help laughing ok.
A lot more babies are dedicated to the heavenly father. Pastor and his wife and the parents are overjoyed by those little cuties. A new generation is rising up to live their lives to praise the One who knows their names before even they were borned.
" A Willing Heart, A Winning Life ". Awesome. I am impacted by this powerful message.
Church is growing. The generation is going to rock the nation. All and all is for His glory, His honour, His majesty. People is growing. More and more hearts are pouring out their willingness. Hurts are cured by His healing and miraculous powers.
How about me?
The "me" who is having hard time??
The "me" who feel hurt in heart??
The "me" who is lost in the midst of worldly flow??
The "me" who struggle to find my way out of puzzles??
The "me" who is fighting with the devils??
The "me" who long for hope and refuge and peace??
The "me" who is the support of vulnerable friends??
The "me" who need to be supported at most of the time??
To be honest, I am blessed with peace, I have no fear to walk my journey, for my hurt heart is healed and my eyes witness His miraculous work. I find myself growing too, being transformed into someone that He wants me to become, a much more better me =)
What more can I say standing at the feet of the King of kings, the Lord of lords, the Name above all names?? Thank you Jesus Christ!! For being my way, the truth and my life..
God's house is full. People need more room. So a new service will be added.
Pastors are "weird". The way he announced about the coming Relationship Seminar. The way he shared about his love story bla bla bla. Hmm sounds "bizarre".
But then people enjoy it. So do I. Just can't help laughing ok.
A lot more babies are dedicated to the heavenly father. Pastor and his wife and the parents are overjoyed by those little cuties. A new generation is rising up to live their lives to praise the One who knows their names before even they were borned.
" A Willing Heart, A Winning Life ". Awesome. I am impacted by this powerful message.
Church is growing. The generation is going to rock the nation. All and all is for His glory, His honour, His majesty. People is growing. More and more hearts are pouring out their willingness. Hurts are cured by His healing and miraculous powers.
How about me?
The "me" who is having hard time??
The "me" who feel hurt in heart??
The "me" who is lost in the midst of worldly flow??
The "me" who struggle to find my way out of puzzles??
The "me" who is fighting with the devils??
The "me" who long for hope and refuge and peace??
The "me" who is the support of vulnerable friends??
The "me" who need to be supported at most of the time??
To be honest, I am blessed with peace, I have no fear to walk my journey, for my hurt heart is healed and my eyes witness His miraculous work. I find myself growing too, being transformed into someone that He wants me to become, a much more better me =)
What more can I say standing at the feet of the King of kings, the Lord of lords, the Name above all names?? Thank you Jesus Christ!! For being my way, the truth and my life..
Saturday, May 26, 2007
Footprint - Picture
I was having allergic sinusitis attack these few days. As usual, slight fever, cold and flu all came together with it. But don't worry about me as I would say that I almost recover 97% =)
Life is good I reckon. Not to say that I have two tests coming in the following week. Not to mention that my final examination is just round at the corner. Yup what do u think? =P
Can't wait for winter break to come. I will be joining TSCF National Student Conference which lasts for seven days. After that I most likely will go to Christchurch to spend the rest of my holidays lol
* Hardly barely smiling *
Sometimes, or most of the time, I compare life to a roller coaster ride, and also to the bull and bear stock market. On one hand, life is full with challenges, uncertainties, obstacles, problems, etc, and all these lead to frustration, disappointment, down-spiritedness, and what not. On the other hand, life seems to be lovely, wonderful, awesome, fantastic,etc, the moment you go through all those I've mentioned above.
Hard to understand what life is all about aye. Even harder to explain in words what life is for you aye. I don't have an ultimate answer myself, or do I want to? Heard from somewhere that " Life is too amazing to be a meaningless and random consequence of the Universe. There has to be a God, something out there - you just have to feel it ". My brain, this little human mind could never ever understand what is God the Almighty playing in His, the superb incredible mind.
So I decide not to trouble myself by putting massive effort to figure that out, no way. He is the creator of the universe, and He is in charge of everything. Then look at me, I don't even know how to take care of myself. All I am able to do is just to become a girl in His light, be obedient to His words, do accordingly to His will. Let my "such-a-mess" life be taken over, because He will turn it into a fruitful and purposeful life.
Come on!! Just imagine that how great your life will be if you've got Superman + Doraemon + Phd. + Financial Expert + Social Adviser + ... to give you a hand in coping with your life, studies, financial problem, social life and stuff?? And what I am telling now is far more greater than that!! Haha.
Even though I surrender my life to Jesus, the best person that I've ever known, what do I need to do is just to "listen" and "act", I am still not living a perfect life. I am just not perfect, but He loves me =) I seriously can't think of what my life would be if I was the one who in charge of my life. Disaster huh?! ^_^
* Smiling Broadly Shinny *
Hmm.. hmm.. to be honest, I was supposed to post a pretty sad article one, at least that was my motive to blog at the very first place, to release electrons, sort of.
But I end up posting such a positive article, at least it has a happy ending. See Jesus can even play a role as an entertainer, to cheer His girl up ^_^ Appreciate my blog too, it serves as the best place for me to "talk".
To give my post its best ending, here is the bonus, a picture I love, and to my surprise, many of you like ( inc those who ask it from me or those who compliment me for it ), with whatsoever reasons =) But then bear in your mind, I possess the absolute right to love this picture ya, you people can only admire it, hohoho!!
Life is good I reckon. Not to say that I have two tests coming in the following week. Not to mention that my final examination is just round at the corner. Yup what do u think? =P
Can't wait for winter break to come. I will be joining TSCF National Student Conference which lasts for seven days. After that I most likely will go to Christchurch to spend the rest of my holidays lol
* Hardly barely smiling *
Sometimes, or most of the time, I compare life to a roller coaster ride, and also to the bull and bear stock market. On one hand, life is full with challenges, uncertainties, obstacles, problems, etc, and all these lead to frustration, disappointment, down-spiritedness, and what not. On the other hand, life seems to be lovely, wonderful, awesome, fantastic,etc, the moment you go through all those I've mentioned above.
Hard to understand what life is all about aye. Even harder to explain in words what life is for you aye. I don't have an ultimate answer myself, or do I want to? Heard from somewhere that " Life is too amazing to be a meaningless and random consequence of the Universe. There has to be a God, something out there - you just have to feel it ". My brain, this little human mind could never ever understand what is God the Almighty playing in His, the superb incredible mind.
So I decide not to trouble myself by putting massive effort to figure that out, no way. He is the creator of the universe, and He is in charge of everything. Then look at me, I don't even know how to take care of myself. All I am able to do is just to become a girl in His light, be obedient to His words, do accordingly to His will. Let my "such-a-mess" life be taken over, because He will turn it into a fruitful and purposeful life.
Come on!! Just imagine that how great your life will be if you've got Superman + Doraemon + Phd. + Financial Expert + Social Adviser + ... to give you a hand in coping with your life, studies, financial problem, social life and stuff?? And what I am telling now is far more greater than that!! Haha.
Even though I surrender my life to Jesus, the best person that I've ever known, what do I need to do is just to "listen" and "act", I am still not living a perfect life. I am just not perfect, but He loves me =) I seriously can't think of what my life would be if I was the one who in charge of my life. Disaster huh?! ^_^
* Smiling Broadly Shinny *
Hmm.. hmm.. to be honest, I was supposed to post a pretty sad article one, at least that was my motive to blog at the very first place, to release electrons, sort of.
But I end up posting such a positive article, at least it has a happy ending. See Jesus can even play a role as an entertainer, to cheer His girl up ^_^ Appreciate my blog too, it serves as the best place for me to "talk".
To give my post its best ending, here is the bonus, a picture I love, and to my surprise, many of you like ( inc those who ask it from me or those who compliment me for it ), with whatsoever reasons =) But then bear in your mind, I possess the absolute right to love this picture ya, you people can only admire it, hohoho!!
Sunday, May 20, 2007
Name Above All
I see. I hear. I feel.
I do nothing but standing speechless.
Suddenly I do not want to be anyone alse!!
I realize that
I cannot do anything and I do not want to do anything
Without Your Presence
Creator. Saviour. Majesty.
Sunday, May 13, 2007
MAMA
My day has its lovely start today!!
I met this Kiwi/or Maori uncle in Weir House and we talked for a while. He noticed the bible in my hand and thus knew that I was going to church.
He gave me such a broad smile and kept repeating that " Good girl good girl!! May God bless you!! " Haha.
PS: Normally I "hate" when people call me good girl and say that I look innocent. To my surprise, not this time =P
**
I urge myself must post today because IT'S MOTHER'S DAY !!!!!!!
Hmm..
Before this, I always thought that it's kinda "hard" to be a man, u know.. It seems like MEN must be tough and strong (which means they can't cry), able to carry responsibility and deal with pressure (as society has exerted more expectation on men), love and protect their another half and family (of course la!! no doubt!! =P )..
I think it's because as I grow up, I've got the best protection ever from my papa and bros, so Im kinda "salute" men in some ways. I still do now actually, just today is mother's day, so must beri muka and mengampu a bit. Hehe.
However, eventually I find out that it's even harder to be a woman, u know.. Why would I say that?? It's all and all because..
which mean they are playing so many roles in their life!! Though u might argue that all these apply to man also what.. But then..
Who give u birth and suffer the ten months of pregnancy??
Who stand at your side when u get scolded by dad??
and the list goes on and on!!
PS: It's actually because my brain is not working anymore.. All blank.. So to be continued la =P
Last but not least, HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY TO MY DEAREST MAMA!!!!!!!
And everyone's mummy too =)
I met this Kiwi/or Maori uncle in Weir House and we talked for a while. He noticed the bible in my hand and thus knew that I was going to church.
He gave me such a broad smile and kept repeating that " Good girl good girl!! May God bless you!! " Haha.
PS: Normally I "hate" when people call me good girl and say that I look innocent. To my surprise, not this time =P
**
I urge myself must post today because IT'S MOTHER'S DAY !!!!!!!
Hmm..
Before this, I always thought that it's kinda "hard" to be a man, u know.. It seems like MEN must be tough and strong (which means they can't cry), able to carry responsibility and deal with pressure (as society has exerted more expectation on men), love and protect their another half and family (of course la!! no doubt!! =P )..
I think it's because as I grow up, I've got the best protection ever from my papa and bros, so Im kinda "salute" men in some ways. I still do now actually, just today is mother's day, so must beri muka and mengampu a bit. Hehe.
However, eventually I find out that it's even harder to be a woman, u know.. Why would I say that?? It's all and all because..
Woman = Daughter + Sister + Friend ( Phase 1)
Woman = Girlfriend + Wife + Mother ( Phase 2)
Woman = Yet for me to figure out more.. Takkan I wanna put " grandmum " lol
which mean they are playing so many roles in their life!! Though u might argue that all these apply to man also what.. But then..
Who give u birth and suffer the ten months of pregnancy??
Who stand at your side when u get scolded by dad??
and the list goes on and on!!
PS: It's actually because my brain is not working anymore.. All blank.. So to be continued la =P
Last but not least, HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY TO MY DEAREST MAMA!!!!!!!
And everyone's mummy too =)
Saturday, May 12, 2007
You say.. But I know..
* I have my lab report and essay due on Mon, and project and assignment due on Tue, but now, I AM BLOGGING =P Lord, I thank you for your blessings in my studies, you have made all the impossibles become possible for me =) *
Anyone : Hey!! How are you??
Me : Hihi.. Im fine. Thank you =)
Anyone : So how's life in New Zealand??
Me : Hmm.. It's GREAT!! I love Welly very much =P
Yup. There is no doubt that I am telling the truth ( as I always do =P ).
I love my life in Welly, very very much indeed. Never thought I would enjoy this much before, thank you Lord for knowing what is the best for me =)
Nevertheless, living a great life does not mean living a purposeful life. Sound simple yet deep.
I was always busy, with my studies, church & ICF, Weir House and friends, and so on..
I would say that I was kinda enjoying my "busy" life, I really really did. Just I was tired and exhausted most of the time, I "consumed" my body far beyond it could afford.
Nevertheless, the Lord of my life sees me and He knows me, and through the spirit I realize of my problem.
I had everything done well, proud to say that. BUT I eventually forgot about what should I prioritize in my life..
Every morning once I opened my eyes, I had the whole day passed in the midst of busyness, till at night I lied on my bed exhaustedly. Even worse was I was really enjoying my busy life, such a smart way the devil used to part me from my purposes..
Nevertheless, my creator is in work, He goes before me shielding my way, and His hands of blessings bring me away from the dark side.
I now shout to the devil that I shall have no fear because I have His love, showered by His amazing grace, what a gracious God I am serving!! My heart is overflowed with peace and rest, in His presence, as Jesus said,
" Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light. " - Matthew 11:28-30 -
Anyone : Hey!! How are you??
Me : Hihi.. Im fine. Thank you =)
Anyone : So how's life in New Zealand??
Me : Hmm.. It's GREAT!! I love Welly very much =P
Yup. There is no doubt that I am telling the truth ( as I always do =P ).
I love my life in Welly, very very much indeed. Never thought I would enjoy this much before, thank you Lord for knowing what is the best for me =)
Nevertheless, living a great life does not mean living a purposeful life. Sound simple yet deep.
I was always busy, with my studies, church & ICF, Weir House and friends, and so on..
I would say that I was kinda enjoying my "busy" life, I really really did. Just I was tired and exhausted most of the time, I "consumed" my body far beyond it could afford.
Nevertheless, the Lord of my life sees me and He knows me, and through the spirit I realize of my problem.
I had everything done well, proud to say that. BUT I eventually forgot about what should I prioritize in my life..
Every morning once I opened my eyes, I had the whole day passed in the midst of busyness, till at night I lied on my bed exhaustedly. Even worse was I was really enjoying my busy life, such a smart way the devil used to part me from my purposes..
Nevertheless, my creator is in work, He goes before me shielding my way, and His hands of blessings bring me away from the dark side.
I now shout to the devil that I shall have no fear because I have His love, showered by His amazing grace, what a gracious God I am serving!! My heart is overflowed with peace and rest, in His presence, as Jesus said,
" Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light. " - Matthew 11:28-30 -
You say that I alone can change the world
But I know it's by the spirit of the Lord
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Nites
Sunday, May 06, 2007
She shall be called 'woman'
PS : Was thinking I would have extremely busy weekends but apparently I was wrong. Thanks God for blessing me and my assignments. That's why I get to post before the next wave of busyness come upon me. Hohoho =P
So, my twentieth birthday was awesome!! Tho totally different from what I'd planned for myself. I did my so-called "count down" talking to my papa, mama, Xian, and Jie. Well, ur daughter and ur sister are now big girl already!! ( Ok, what kinda looks are that?! hmm.. )
At around half past twelve midnight, my door was BANGGG!! The first thing that came into my mind was " Oh goshhh.. Takkan they got drunk till this extent.. Should I open it?? " I did.
Once I opened the door, I was shocked to become speechless!! Came into my sight were three girls in pyjamas holding lovely presents in their hands!! Obviously they had been waiting for me for nearly half an hour as I was on phone =P ( Ok, I shall never forget ur sleepy looks.. lol )
Terima kasih banyak-banyak!!
Pra!! I was soooo touched by ur words and blessings *sob sob*
Jess!! Glad to hear ur sweet sweet voice again ^_^
Emay!! U tak boleh harap punya la.. still as lazy as before =P
Yi Xin!! Ur text was the longest.. yet fantastic =)
So, my twentieth birthday was awesome!! Tho totally different from what I'd planned for myself. I did my so-called "count down" talking to my papa, mama, Xian, and Jie. Well, ur daughter and ur sister are now big girl already!! ( Ok, what kinda looks are that?! hmm.. )
At around half past twelve midnight, my door was BANGGG!! The first thing that came into my mind was " Oh goshhh.. Takkan they got drunk till this extent.. Should I open it?? " I did.
Once I opened the door, I was shocked to become speechless!! Came into my sight were three girls in pyjamas holding lovely presents in their hands!! Obviously they had been waiting for me for nearly half an hour as I was on phone =P ( Ok, I shall never forget ur sleepy looks.. lol )
Terima kasih banyak-banyak!!( Appreciate u all took the risk of gaining weight eating curry laksa and cheesecake with me )
Other than that, my email inbox, cell phone inbox were nearly exploded!! No kidding man.. Am I showing off?! Of course no.. Im just being honest lol
For friends in Malaysia, I would like very much to acknowledge u all here, but.. I don't have any photos with me at the moment.. sigh =(
For friends in New Zealand, I guess I will just show girls' photos, as I don't think I am supposed to run out of my topic/title ( see above ) lol
Pra!! I was soooo touched by ur words and blessings *sob sob*( Especially thank u for showing ur "jiwang-ness" to me.. Jitra = Jiwang ?! )
Jess!! Glad to hear ur sweet sweet voice again ^_^( Faster say YES lo.. then we can talk face to face.. dun wanna let Vodafone to earn our money ma )
Emay!! U tak boleh harap punya la.. still as lazy as before =P ( There is 95% confidence that.... haha I study the quantitative analysis too.. in statistics )
Yi Xin!! Ur text was the longest.. yet fantastic =)( I know I know.. how could I not know that u have put in a lot of effort in it.. hehe )
And.. my birthday surprises lasted till the following two days.. yeap. Truly appreciate all the wishes and blesses!! I ended my birthday hugging by my Kiwi friends and my RA one by one in front of my room. I felt like I was doing hongi again!!
THANK YOU VERY MUCH TO ALL OF YOU
Curious about what are the wishes that I make for myself.. ya I see u nodding hard..
hmm..
err..
ar..
I wanna be a Woman of God
( I think I prefer to stick to "Girl of God".. sounds much more better lol)
So what do we/I mean by becoming a girl of God.. ya I see u continue nodding even harder..
hmm..
err..
ar..
I DON'T KNOW LER
However, my God knows. It so happens that my bible track for this week is all about the women of the bible!! Praise be the Lord. Amen!!
" This is now bone of my bones
and flesh of my flesh;
she shall be called 'woman'
for she was taken out of man
-Genesis 2:23-
He has make me a way.. all I need to do is just to let my heart be taken over control by Him.. and I shall have a fruitful life ahead =)
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Saturday, May 05, 2007
Dance dance dance
Yoooooo !!!!
Guess what ?! ?!
I.. just.. came back.. from dance lol
Read from somewhere that " God's grace fall upon us everyday every moment everywhere.. but we never really realized about it.. or even worse.. do we wanna acknowledge it?? "
Now I think I've got one add-on towards this that " God's always in work.. giving impact in our lives.. whether we feel that He is close.. or He is distant.. the thing is.. He is there!! "
Signed up for a Barn Dance ( Line Dance ) night last Sunday. Did it without any proper consideration. Din't know what's that all about. Nor where would it be held. Din't bother about the transportation. Nor who else would be going.
Never crossed my mind that I would go for such thing. Dance?! No way.. I know myself.. and u all know me =P I guess at the very moment I'd got some kinda calling deep inside my heart pushing me to put my name on the sign-up form..
So after two days I was struggling, and I planned to just pay the money and pulled off. I tried every ways and means I'd got but due to many many "indescribable" "supernatural" or "weird" reasons.. I failed.. That's why I ended up going for it, the dance, today!!
All participants were asked to dress up in country gears and stuff. But I just din't bother too much about all those. Wore sport shoes instead of boots, etc, just braided my hair, done. Yeap of course I din't forget to pray and then comfort myself that " Just dance for God.. "
As usual, I tried to be very low-profiled, staying at the very back of the line, and yeap, enjoyed myself with those steps. I would say it was fun tho, my partners were nice, and I found out I had "talent" in following the steps ( ps: I was saying "following", not "dancing" k )
Then we were called to take out the half pocker card that they gave us during our entries and matched the other half from our partners. For ur info, I met mine very fast, but I doubted whether it could be considered as lucky or unlucky. Why?! Just continue reading =P
My partner was a Kiwi, well, nothing wrong to do with him. But he was asked by the demonstrator to bring his partner, which was me, up to the stage, together with three other pairs. He walked up like he was supposed to and I had no choice but followed =(
So.. my very intention was to have a peaceful night.. that simple.. yet so hard.. I was talking to God " Are u kidding me?! " At that moment I'd got all the limelight, and yeap, hundred pairs of eyes, looking at me =I Recalled back, I din't feel nervous tho, hmm, it's unusual..
We remained on the stage and became the "living model" of everyone else. I couldn't remember anything clearly, just myself being swing, turn, bla bla bla. Amazingly at that moment, I felt like I was dancing because I was free inside. Din't care about the movements and steps, just dance in His kingdom, with His people. It was awesome!!
Maybe now u are gonna say that u've got what I was trying to tell. Nope.. u are not getting me right.. yet. As it was just the beginning, as I came down from the stage, I went straight into the crowd right before the last dance got started. And guess what?!
All of us were asked to dance the last one and the best team would be awarded. Out of no reason and so coincidentally I was in the team that ended up winning the so-called competition. And I had to go up the stage, again!! I was like " Dear God.. are u kidding me.. again?! "
Of course u wouldn't get any response from Him.. la.. Is that playing in ur mind right now?? lol But believe it or not, He did, Im pretty sure that He was winking at me, yeap I do!!
What kinda of God do I serve?? I ask myself. He knows me better than I do. He wants to bless me in anything that I involve. He knows what I need before even I open my mouth. And.. He loves me.. in a way that I could never ever imagine with my little human mind..
And most importantly is.. He never "curi tulang" He never complain of having to do so much work!! Instead of that.. He is always in work.. His grace is always upon all His children!!
I have no regret going for the dance =) Not because of my partner was the key person in church.. Not because of I got to dance with my favourite worship singer in service.. Not because of my another partner looked like David Tao.. Not because of the title as best dance team.. ( Kinda, maybe lol )
It's all and all because I'd got to dance with my heart, in freedom!! I take it as a blessing, so that I can continue dancing in the freedom I get and in the kingdom I belong to..
This is what You have been trying to let me know the whole week, isn't it?? Yeap.. Im pretty sure I see You winking.. again!! Amen.
Guess what ?! ?!
I.. just.. came back.. from dance lol
Read from somewhere that " God's grace fall upon us everyday every moment everywhere.. but we never really realized about it.. or even worse.. do we wanna acknowledge it?? "
Now I think I've got one add-on towards this that " God's always in work.. giving impact in our lives.. whether we feel that He is close.. or He is distant.. the thing is.. He is there!! "
Signed up for a Barn Dance ( Line Dance ) night last Sunday. Did it without any proper consideration. Din't know what's that all about. Nor where would it be held. Din't bother about the transportation. Nor who else would be going.
Never crossed my mind that I would go for such thing. Dance?! No way.. I know myself.. and u all know me =P I guess at the very moment I'd got some kinda calling deep inside my heart pushing me to put my name on the sign-up form..
So after two days I was struggling, and I planned to just pay the money and pulled off. I tried every ways and means I'd got but due to many many "indescribable" "supernatural" or "weird" reasons.. I failed.. That's why I ended up going for it, the dance, today!!
All participants were asked to dress up in country gears and stuff. But I just din't bother too much about all those. Wore sport shoes instead of boots, etc, just braided my hair, done. Yeap of course I din't forget to pray and then comfort myself that " Just dance for God.. "
As usual, I tried to be very low-profiled, staying at the very back of the line, and yeap, enjoyed myself with those steps. I would say it was fun tho, my partners were nice, and I found out I had "talent" in following the steps ( ps: I was saying "following", not "dancing" k )
Then we were called to take out the half pocker card that they gave us during our entries and matched the other half from our partners. For ur info, I met mine very fast, but I doubted whether it could be considered as lucky or unlucky. Why?! Just continue reading =P
My partner was a Kiwi, well, nothing wrong to do with him. But he was asked by the demonstrator to bring his partner, which was me, up to the stage, together with three other pairs. He walked up like he was supposed to and I had no choice but followed =(
So.. my very intention was to have a peaceful night.. that simple.. yet so hard.. I was talking to God " Are u kidding me?! " At that moment I'd got all the limelight, and yeap, hundred pairs of eyes, looking at me =I Recalled back, I din't feel nervous tho, hmm, it's unusual..
We remained on the stage and became the "living model" of everyone else. I couldn't remember anything clearly, just myself being swing, turn, bla bla bla. Amazingly at that moment, I felt like I was dancing because I was free inside. Din't care about the movements and steps, just dance in His kingdom, with His people. It was awesome!!
Maybe now u are gonna say that u've got what I was trying to tell. Nope.. u are not getting me right.. yet. As it was just the beginning, as I came down from the stage, I went straight into the crowd right before the last dance got started. And guess what?!
All of us were asked to dance the last one and the best team would be awarded. Out of no reason and so coincidentally I was in the team that ended up winning the so-called competition. And I had to go up the stage, again!! I was like " Dear God.. are u kidding me.. again?! "
Of course u wouldn't get any response from Him.. la.. Is that playing in ur mind right now?? lol But believe it or not, He did, Im pretty sure that He was winking at me, yeap I do!!
What kinda of God do I serve?? I ask myself. He knows me better than I do. He wants to bless me in anything that I involve. He knows what I need before even I open my mouth. And.. He loves me.. in a way that I could never ever imagine with my little human mind..
And most importantly is.. He never "curi tulang" He never complain of having to do so much work!! Instead of that.. He is always in work.. His grace is always upon all His children!!
I have no regret going for the dance =) Not because of my partner was the key person in church.. Not because of I got to dance with my favourite worship singer in service.. Not because of my another partner looked like David Tao.. Not because of the title as best dance team.. ( Kinda, maybe lol )
It's all and all because I'd got to dance with my heart, in freedom!! I take it as a blessing, so that I can continue dancing in the freedom I get and in the kingdom I belong to..
This is what You have been trying to let me know the whole week, isn't it?? Yeap.. Im pretty sure I see You winking.. again!! Amen.
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