倔强

A splendid year 2007,

left with last 5 days..

Will it be possible

to make up the last regret??

christmas Christmas

"Mum.. Do you still care about it??"
I asked carefully.

"Nah.. I had it all cleared out of my mind long time ago."
Mum answered like nothing has happened before.

A few years ago, when I was in primary school, I was nothing but what people called as good student. Teachers loved me, I loved studying. Friends like me, life was wonderful.

However, deep inside my soul, a wild fire was burning, an anti-norm attitude had been developed secretly. Therefore, I tried to challenge the framed examination format and striked to make breakthroughs.

Well, I did it. There were two outcomes, two extreme ones.

The bad outcome was that one of my essay was considered out of topic, which means I did not get an A for it. What turned bad to worse was that my failure was kinda shocking to teachers in my school and it led into arguments among teachers from different schools. Some said my essay was actually acceptable because my points were creative, on the other hand, some said I should not write stuff outside the box.

I remained silence throughout that time. I enjoyed writing, all I wanna do was just to turn information into power. I did not mean to bring anything bad to anyone, but the fact was that I was. I did not understand what was going on, and I simply could not, I was just ten. One thing that I could not deny was that I started to doubt myself, till another news hit me.

The good outcome was that another essay of mine had won me an excellence in a national level writing competition. I got money and my essay was published, together with all other essays throughout Malaysia.

I still remained silence after this. It was hard, but I became tougher after this test, and eventually I gained back my confidence bit by bit. It took me a while to leave all the fear behind and moved on, but I was thankful.

Today, mum and I ran into part of that history. This time, I was still silent, and mum, who used to shield me from all harms, she seemed alright.

Today, it is Christmas eve, my second Christmas after I decide to live my life for Christ, the one who holds the universe yet give me all still.

*Forgive, because God offered us forgiveness by dying of His Son, I learn*

In the midst of commercialized Christmas nowadays, let the door of your heart be knocked, give your soul a chance to be showered by His amazing love.

For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life -John 3:16-

游乐场

追追赶赶 高高低低 深呼吸然后与你执手相随
甜蜜中不再畏高 可这样跟你荡来荡去无畏无惧 《幸福摩天轮》

仰望着眼前的摩天轮，五彩缤纷的灯光耀眼极了，使得我不禁在心中奏起久违的乐章。 随之进入眼帘的尽是幸福的人们，扬起嘴角尽情的挥洒着难得的准童年时光。

丫头当然也不落人后啰！！

因为表弟妹们的到来，我打着尽地主之宜的旗号，带领大队往游乐场进攻，实则为寻回准童年状态而来，哈哈。可怜被我拖下水壮烈牺牲充当司机兼保姆的弟弟及表弟 =P

最缤纷的花园游乐过但求动心 就算是世间末日抚心自问都想秒秒惊心
最宽广的公园游乐过为何认真 若我只剩一席位都想入座观赏这个惊险人生 《游乐场》

those hands

I saw dad talking to a young guy, and I observed.

Then they turned to me,
Dad said, "He was once my student."
So I smiled at him politely.
He said, "Your dad is a great teacher."
While he shaked my hand.
I still could feel the warmth in my hand till we left.

Next dad and I ran into a young lady, another of his student.
"Wow!! Your daughter?!" She asked.
"Last time she was still little, now big girl already." She continued.

After that, we were caught by a lady who was carrying a baby.
"Is she your daughter?? The one who studies in New Zealand??"
Yeap. Another student dad used to teach. And she knew about me lol

The first guy, he is a boss now.
The second girl, she has a career in KL.
The third lady, she is a mum, a tough mum!! She managed to live thru her life after her husband died in a car crash in South Africa after she gave birth to their first child. Standing in front of me today, she is satisfied, with her child in her arms =)

To put an end to this post, I pick this photo which I find today in my favourite blog. There are plenty of people commenting about it, but it wins my heart just simply because..



that hand changes dream into vision
that hand paints dull life into a colourful one
that hand visualizes idea into reality
that hand captures scenery and turned into memory
that hand maybe rough, but definitely that hand rocks ^_^

There must be a reason..

For the past two weeks, due to the flood and the consequences it brought, I had so much time to do nothing, but to think..

For the past two days, the flood has gradually subsided. As a result, I have little time to do many things, but I'm still thinking..

"There must be a reason someone come into one's life"
It lingers in my mind and makes me to think..


And I remember

the girl who amazingly knew who was I and appeared to be there for me when I was helpless. I had no idea who she was and I thought she was just kidding when she said me goodbye. The next day when I woke up she was gone.

the guy who kindly relaxed my tension by making faces and lame jokes. He taught me how to apply theory practically. Meal times were always great as it provided a platform for us to put aside all the stress and pressure.

the big bros who mistook and continued to mistake me as their friend's sister. We broke rules together so that I got to play flying fox twice, and in slow motion.

the little girl who liked to smile and apparently who was tougher than me. We stayed awake staring at the starry sky and enjoying the smell of the wide paddy fiels.

the AJK who caught me walking in darkness and gave me his torch light. The light was not strong at all but it brightened my way.

the talented guy whom I helped to arrange one of his concerts. I heard pop singer singing the song composed by him a few years later. It was the very hit song of the year. I saw him in newspaper too the other day. He was the guest singer in a concert.

the fair girl who loved to cry so much. She was crying when we first met and people thought what did I do to her. She was still crying when we parted and people looked at me with that face again.

the teammate who gave me his gloves when our team needed to go through an obstacle challenge. My hands were still hurt but much less.

the sunny boy who gave me that smile and made me an unicorn balloon. I'm sure that he has eventually fixed himself in Christ and is shining for Him.

And the list goes on


People come and people go. Some of them are meant to be grabbed if we do hope them to stay. Many of them would just leave, and we are left with a reason, or a memory. It is your call.

I do not know where the above people are. But I thank them, thank you for appearing in my life, thank you for teaching me something, thank you for leaving me those sweet memories.

Thank you for knocking on my head, so that I learn how to grab and how to let go.

miss mamak

"Min Yu, your friend called you just now.." Bro told me once I stepped into my house.

That's what happened most. I did not have my own mobile number and as a result people did not get to find me.

I miss mamak. But I missed it.

"Min Yu, we are gonna have mamak tomorrow, wait for my call ok.." Friend told me so.

That's what happened most. I am always lack initiative in this kind of stuff but I have great friends to push me.

I miss mamak. In fact I miss friends.

Five minutes later, a group of people appeared at the front door. To my big surprise, my friend led everyone to my house to say hi. The clock just hit 12 midnight.

"Min Yu Min Yu!! Have a guess!! Do you see any difference among our friends?!" He questioned me naughtily. "Hehehe.. Of course I know!! I am just updated ok!!" I answered in my heart. We threw eyes on each others then we burst into laughters.

The feelings are still the same. The chemicals never faded away.

The next day, after the sun went down of course, I finally was sitting at the mamak. Talking about stuff, whether those stuff made sense or not. Laughing over stuff, whether those stuff were laugh-able or not. Memories whirled back to olden days.

"Min Yu, just stay calm. Everything would be alright. The police would not know.." My friends were comforting but teasing me at the same time. Why?? It is because I did not bring along my IC and there were policemen all around as there was a local celebration going on.

Then I was sent back as usual. My driver reported me his latest views on politics as usual. "I will never lose hope on love!!" That's his last words for me, yeap as usual. Now I still can't help but laugh, sometimes things just never changed lol

Thank you all. I had a sweet night. Not to include the not-to-be-found-out-by-police adventure ^_^

what matter

Firstly, I was waken up in the mornings by telephone calls and sms-es. The next thing I knew, mum came in my room and said, "xxx are on their way to see you..". The next thing I did, my body jumped out of bed and rushed to washroom and took real quick shower. Then I found myself sitting in the living room being exhibited to the visitors lol

Secondly, people were shocked when they ran into me, and I simply enjoyed watching their eyes and mouth opened till their faces were distorted. Haha no kidding. Maybe because they did not expect to see me there, maybe because I only went out after sunset. I love my life!!

In conclusion, I was told that I got fairer and prettier, which was pleased. And that I was a freak, because I hated the sun and the heat so much, because I stayed home when the sun came out and went out when the moon showed up lol