mei mei.. I so wanna hug you before I turned away from you..
but I did not. It was easier for you to say goodbye that way. It was easier for you to handle parting if I did not leave you much memories. but was it possible?
mei mei.. A little you have given me such huge deep impact!!
The moment we got lost in the busy shopping complex because of my terrible sense of direction, you were the one who acted cool and led me out of puzzles. No cry, no blame, you did not even lose confidence to trust yourself into my hands.
The moment you eventually approached me, gently picked up my hand, you held it and you asked me not to hold those hands too tightly as they were gonna sweat later. Looking into your sincere eyes, it hit me straight to the bottom of my heart.
mei mei, you are little, you are still the real you, your original identity and personalities are still well-protected from the outside world. You do not hide your true feelings, you go ahead with whatever you think you need to do, your life is free from regrets and losses and I truly hope that you will not have to go thru that soon.
At night you generously gave me half of your bed, you made me dress up your barbie dolls and you kept talking about everything, and you would not let me sleep even after you had said me goodnight for more than ten times. At last you finally asked me not to leave the next day, even though you clearly knew that was not possible.
mei mei, you might not know that I could not sleep well that day, I was awake staring at the ceiling, with all kinda things processing in my mind. After covering you with blanket, I questioned myself when was my last time being brave against lows and problems? Since when I tend to act like tortoise and hide in my shell to escape reality?
You are a little angel God put in my life, to be my mirror so that I will not easily be moulded into a masked me by the earthly world. May you be blessed, together with your big bro, the knight on white horse, as well as your second bro, the kind giant, live happily and healthily always and forover!!
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